I’ve got my eye on the prize. That prize is a long, active life where I live long enough to meet my great-grandchildren. To get there, I’ve made a commitment to myself to eat healthy, remain active and enjoy the ride along the way.
As someone who has struggled most of her life with my weight, I don’t want it to all be about looking good or fitting into that new pair of jeans. I want it to be about what really matters - a long, comfortable life with lots of joys and memories that are built.
Looking good is important, but feeling good is essential. It took me 48 years to realize this. I’ve been on this journey way too long in life and turns out that I was heading down the wrong path all along. I was more concerned with fitting into those size 10 pants again instead of feeling proud of myself for being able to walk up three flights of stairs without feeling winded.
Now that I am finally looking at life through the right lense, it feels damn good. Every little thing feels like a major accomplishment. I’m down 31 pounds and absolutely love my workouts at the gym 4-5 nights/week. I still have another 34 pounds to get me back to where I was after my WLS, but I’m not in a rush. I feel good about myself and love working out at the gym with my husband. Life is good...it really is.
Friday, June 29, 2018
Saturday, June 23, 2018
I am officially back. For good this time. I have been off the grid for a few years now. My only real excuse is that I’ve been caught up in life. My job. My family. In that time, I have definitely regressed a bit and went back to some poor eating habits. Since my weight loss surgery 9 years ago, I had literally put back on 65 pounds. I honestly was focusing on everyone but myself. My husband, my kids, my parents, my pets, my co-workers. Everyone but myself. I was last on my list.
In March of this year, I hit a low point in my life when I realized I was disgusted with my body ONCE AGAIN and I had jumped back up to 235 pounds (my highest weight right before WLS was 271 pounds). I returned from a business trip to South America in March and decided it was time to take my life back. I joined Weight Watchers and have been tracking using the online app pretty obsessively and also attending the weekly meetings. I also started back at the gym and have been going 4-5 days a week. Since starting this new journey to find myself again, I am down 28 pounds and have added some definition to my body.
So, I have been thinking a lot about why I am successful this time in my weight loss journey using Weight Watchers when I had tried it many times in the past unsuccessfully. In past attempts to lose weight (before the WLS), I would lose a few pounds here and there but never anything dramatic or impactful. This time, the combination of Weight Watchers and a commitment to the gym is what I think is the magic recipe.
My husband and I started personal training sessions this week as a way to bump up our game. I’d been feeling a bit complacent lately and doing the same exercises each time at the gym. Our trainer worked our tails off on Thursday night and I’m really feeling it today. I look forward to continuing our workouts and personal training sessions. I hope that this is the jumpstart that I need to kick myself into gear.
My goal is to lose another 30 pounds by October. I know it’s a stretch, but I have 15 weeks to do it and I’m 150% committed! I can do this. I know I can.
In March of this year, I hit a low point in my life when I realized I was disgusted with my body ONCE AGAIN and I had jumped back up to 235 pounds (my highest weight right before WLS was 271 pounds). I returned from a business trip to South America in March and decided it was time to take my life back. I joined Weight Watchers and have been tracking using the online app pretty obsessively and also attending the weekly meetings. I also started back at the gym and have been going 4-5 days a week. Since starting this new journey to find myself again, I am down 28 pounds and have added some definition to my body.
So, I have been thinking a lot about why I am successful this time in my weight loss journey using Weight Watchers when I had tried it many times in the past unsuccessfully. In past attempts to lose weight (before the WLS), I would lose a few pounds here and there but never anything dramatic or impactful. This time, the combination of Weight Watchers and a commitment to the gym is what I think is the magic recipe.
My husband and I started personal training sessions this week as a way to bump up our game. I’d been feeling a bit complacent lately and doing the same exercises each time at the gym. Our trainer worked our tails off on Thursday night and I’m really feeling it today. I look forward to continuing our workouts and personal training sessions. I hope that this is the jumpstart that I need to kick myself into gear.
My goal is to lose another 30 pounds by October. I know it’s a stretch, but I have 15 weeks to do it and I’m 150% committed! I can do this. I know I can.
Monday, February 25, 2013
I'm back!
Hi everyone. I'm back! April 30th will be my four-year surgiversary. I can honestly say that my decision to have WLS was the best decision that I've ever made in my entire life! I lost a total of 101 pounds, and it truly did give me my life back. However, over the last 1-1/2 years, I've managed to go back to some old poor eating habits (convenience foods, carbs, etc.) and I've put back on about 35 pounds.
I made the decision last weekend to kick-start things again -- it was definitely time. My clothes were very tight (I'd gotten as low as a size 12, but am now back up to a 16). I was feeling sluggish and just knew that if I didn't do something now, then I was on my way back to plus sizes and just feeling miserable about myself.
So, last Monday, I started back to the basics - lots of water, protein shakes for breakfast, salads and low-fat and low-carb meals, and lots of fruits and veggies. I haven't had any sugar since last weekend either (that was also part of my downfall - the realization that I could handle sugar again). Since starting my "back to the basics" diet last Monday, I'm down a total of 5 pounds!!! This week, my goal is to start exercising again and keep up with the healthy eating habits! I really want to lose that other 30 pounds by summer. I'd love to lose half of that before April when I head to Cancun for a business trip!
Blogging and being active on several WLS message boards was one thing that kept me focused during my initial weight loss. It's something that I want to start again with a renewed focus. When I made this commitment four years ago, I knew it was going to be a lifelong commitment. A few bumps in the road later, I'm back on track now and look forward to my renewed commitment!!
So, last Monday, I started back to the basics - lots of water, protein shakes for breakfast, salads and low-fat and low-carb meals, and lots of fruits and veggies. I haven't had any sugar since last weekend either (that was also part of my downfall - the realization that I could handle sugar again). Since starting my "back to the basics" diet last Monday, I'm down a total of 5 pounds!!! This week, my goal is to start exercising again and keep up with the healthy eating habits! I really want to lose that other 30 pounds by summer. I'd love to lose half of that before April when I head to Cancun for a business trip!
Blogging and being active on several WLS message boards was one thing that kept me focused during my initial weight loss. It's something that I want to start again with a renewed focus. When I made this commitment four years ago, I knew it was going to be a lifelong commitment. A few bumps in the road later, I'm back on track now and look forward to my renewed commitment!!
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Happy Independence Day!
We had some neighbors over today for a cookout, and I was a little naughty. We had three completely scrumptious desserts (baked smores, Rice Krispie treats, brownies). I just had to taste a little of each. It was honestly the first time that I've had that much sugar intake. Fortunately (or maybe I should say unfortunately), I wasn't phased by the sugar intake at all!
Up until this point, I have really tried to watch my sugar intake. I still have Splenda in my coffee in the morning, and I very rarely ever have a sweet or dessert. If I'm in the mood, I'll make myself some sugar-free rice pudding or have some fresh fruit for dessert. Today was just overkill (as evidenced by me still being up at 12:15 am - wired from the sugar, I suppose).
I have definitely become more complacent over the last few months. I haven't been packing my lunch at work very much, which has resulted in more eating out, and of course, eating unhealthy foods. I've been blessed that all of this lack of planning hasn't caught up with me too much. I'm still down about 90 pounds from where I started a little over two years ago. If I can get my act together, I'd like to lose another 10 pounds and stay there for the rest of my life.
This whole journey has been so life changing and at the same time mind boggling for me. I cannot even imagine going back to that same embarrassed, unconfident, and shy person that I was before my gastric bypass surgery. It's hard to recall those days, but I can sure remember the feeling of wanting to hide behind everything and everyone.
Up until this point, I have really tried to watch my sugar intake. I still have Splenda in my coffee in the morning, and I very rarely ever have a sweet or dessert. If I'm in the mood, I'll make myself some sugar-free rice pudding or have some fresh fruit for dessert. Today was just overkill (as evidenced by me still being up at 12:15 am - wired from the sugar, I suppose).
I have definitely become more complacent over the last few months. I haven't been packing my lunch at work very much, which has resulted in more eating out, and of course, eating unhealthy foods. I've been blessed that all of this lack of planning hasn't caught up with me too much. I'm still down about 90 pounds from where I started a little over two years ago. If I can get my act together, I'd like to lose another 10 pounds and stay there for the rest of my life.
This whole journey has been so life changing and at the same time mind boggling for me. I cannot even imagine going back to that same embarrassed, unconfident, and shy person that I was before my gastric bypass surgery. It's hard to recall those days, but I can sure remember the feeling of wanting to hide behind everything and everyone.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Still around...
Wow, it's been a really, really long time since I've blogged on here. Guess it's called complacency. When you're comfortable with your weight and not struggling like I did so many times in the past, I suppose you don't really focus on things like weight loss.
It's been more than two years since I had my WLS, and I'm happy to say that I'm still down about 90 pounds. I did put back a few of the initial pounds that I've lost, but I guess that's all due to my lack of focus and with my body just basically figuring out where it's supposed to be. I'm not as active as I'd like to be, but with my busy schedule, I do tend to be up and about a lot.
I would like to focus on being more active - taking walks in the evenings, lifting some light weights, and taking a few laps around our pool. It will be easier now that summer is here and I've graduated from grad school (whoopie!).
I guess that I'd like to acknowledge once again what a wonderful decision it was to have the WLS and change my life. I can't imagine going back to the insecure person that I was before. I am so grateful to have this new lease on life, and promise myself - and my kids - that I won't ever go back!
Until next time, I wish you all the best of luck in your endeavors and if WLS is something you are considering, I would highly recommend that you do your research and know the positives and negatives of this wonderful medical tool!
It's been more than two years since I had my WLS, and I'm happy to say that I'm still down about 90 pounds. I did put back a few of the initial pounds that I've lost, but I guess that's all due to my lack of focus and with my body just basically figuring out where it's supposed to be. I'm not as active as I'd like to be, but with my busy schedule, I do tend to be up and about a lot.
I would like to focus on being more active - taking walks in the evenings, lifting some light weights, and taking a few laps around our pool. It will be easier now that summer is here and I've graduated from grad school (whoopie!).
I guess that I'd like to acknowledge once again what a wonderful decision it was to have the WLS and change my life. I can't imagine going back to the insecure person that I was before. I am so grateful to have this new lease on life, and promise myself - and my kids - that I won't ever go back!
Until next time, I wish you all the best of luck in your endeavors and if WLS is something you are considering, I would highly recommend that you do your research and know the positives and negatives of this wonderful medical tool!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Struggling a bit...
It's been a while since I've blogged on here...a really long while. I am approaching my two-year surgiversary and have been having some issues the last few months:
- eating on the run (too many convenience foods)
- inproper planning of meals
- eating too many carbs
- not getting enough protein
- not drinking enough water
- NO exercise
Seriously, some of these have been problems all along (carbs, not enough water), so I might as well just write them off now and acknowledge that they will be struggles for the rest of my life.
However, some of the other issues seem to be just me falling back into bad habits. I am hoping that with spring coming and the weather getting nicer, I will get outside more and be more active. I feel like I've been a bear hibernating the last few months. I've been grazing all the time and I've even discovered that my body can tolerate small amounts of sugar. Not that I sit around eating three cupcakes at a time, but now I know that I can have a bite of that cupcake...and that is dangerous!
I'm really hoping that by getting back on track with this blogging (putting my thoughts down), that I will be more cognizant of what I'm eating and doing. I need to snap out of this funk, and get back to the basics (protein first, lots and lots of water).
My lowest weight (for just one day) was 169 pounds...and that was about 9 months out after surgery. I've slowly tickered back up to 179 pounds, which still isn't too bad. My initial goal was 160 pounds...and I think I can still do it. Just have to start exercising and drinking the water...and cutting back on the carbs and snacking.
Here's hoping to a new outlook for me this spring! Peace out!
- eating on the run (too many convenience foods)
- inproper planning of meals
- eating too many carbs
- not getting enough protein
- not drinking enough water
- NO exercise
Seriously, some of these have been problems all along (carbs, not enough water), so I might as well just write them off now and acknowledge that they will be struggles for the rest of my life.
However, some of the other issues seem to be just me falling back into bad habits. I am hoping that with spring coming and the weather getting nicer, I will get outside more and be more active. I feel like I've been a bear hibernating the last few months. I've been grazing all the time and I've even discovered that my body can tolerate small amounts of sugar. Not that I sit around eating three cupcakes at a time, but now I know that I can have a bite of that cupcake...and that is dangerous!
I'm really hoping that by getting back on track with this blogging (putting my thoughts down), that I will be more cognizant of what I'm eating and doing. I need to snap out of this funk, and get back to the basics (protein first, lots and lots of water).
My lowest weight (for just one day) was 169 pounds...and that was about 9 months out after surgery. I've slowly tickered back up to 179 pounds, which still isn't too bad. My initial goal was 160 pounds...and I think I can still do it. Just have to start exercising and drinking the water...and cutting back on the carbs and snacking.
Here's hoping to a new outlook for me this spring! Peace out!
Saturday, August 7, 2010
An amazing transformation...
I know I've blabbed on here so much about the amazing physical transformation that I've lived through in the last 16 months, but this week for the first time, I've experienced and realized another sort of transformation: my confidence level.
I've never really been a very confident person, and my weight has been the biggest reason for that. Throughout the years, I have been a bit on the shy side and not very confident speaking in front of large groups.
This week, I was given the assignment at work of presenting two hours worth of material to a group of about 55-60 co-workers: fellow administrators, building secretaries, and district office employees. The topic wasn't the easiest to present (customer service/family-school partnerships), so I was very intimidated when my boss asked me to do this.
I spent about two weeks preparing my presentation and the activities that would go along with it. I started getting nervous a few days before the presentation, mostly because these were my co-workers that I had to present to. If it would have been a group of individuals at a conference that I'd never see again, that would have been a different story. But, these were my co-workers that I had to see each and every day.
As I got up to give the presentation, my nerves started acting up...I felt my voice start to crack as I began talking. But, I quickly recovered and the rest of the presentation went smoothly. My confidence level really allowed me to get through the presentation, keep an active audience, and even garnered a round of applause at the end! I was shocked.
I've been mulling things over the last day or two, and came to the conclusion that I NEVER would have been able to pull this off a few years ago before my surgery. Not only did I not have the confidence to stand up in front of a crowd that size, I also don't think I could have pulled off the content as effectively.
So, this is just another reason to be happy with the decision that I made to have WLS. Not only have I changed on the outside for the positive, but I've also changed on the inside. What a wonderful feeling...
I've never really been a very confident person, and my weight has been the biggest reason for that. Throughout the years, I have been a bit on the shy side and not very confident speaking in front of large groups.
This week, I was given the assignment at work of presenting two hours worth of material to a group of about 55-60 co-workers: fellow administrators, building secretaries, and district office employees. The topic wasn't the easiest to present (customer service/family-school partnerships), so I was very intimidated when my boss asked me to do this.
I spent about two weeks preparing my presentation and the activities that would go along with it. I started getting nervous a few days before the presentation, mostly because these were my co-workers that I had to present to. If it would have been a group of individuals at a conference that I'd never see again, that would have been a different story. But, these were my co-workers that I had to see each and every day.
As I got up to give the presentation, my nerves started acting up...I felt my voice start to crack as I began talking. But, I quickly recovered and the rest of the presentation went smoothly. My confidence level really allowed me to get through the presentation, keep an active audience, and even garnered a round of applause at the end! I was shocked.
I've been mulling things over the last day or two, and came to the conclusion that I NEVER would have been able to pull this off a few years ago before my surgery. Not only did I not have the confidence to stand up in front of a crowd that size, I also don't think I could have pulled off the content as effectively.
So, this is just another reason to be happy with the decision that I made to have WLS. Not only have I changed on the outside for the positive, but I've also changed on the inside. What a wonderful feeling...
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Getting into the groove...
I finally took the initiative this weekend and started a workout program. Although my family had a membership to our local YMCA, we really didn't use it very much except for an occasional swim. A new LA Fitness opened about 3 minutes from my house, and I've been toying for a while with checking it out. I figured it was so close to home, that I'd have no excuse for not working out.
So, I went on Friday and joined the LA Fitness and cancelled our YMCA membership. The greatest perk to the LA Fitness membership is that I can bring two guests with me at any time! My husband came with me on Friday night and we had a great workout together. Then, my friend Karen came with me this morning and we had a wonderful time (it was her birthday too!).
I feel much more comfortable at the new gym than I did at the YMCA -- for some reason, I was so intimidated at the Y. I don't know if it was the people or the facility, but it just didn't work for me. I'm very hopeful that my new gym will be easier for me to get my exercise in. I'm even going to try to take some classes this week!
I'm at the point now where I've been plateaued for about 8 months...stuck at a 100-101 pound weight loss. I'm very happy where I am, but would still love to lose another 10-15 pounds and tone the jiggle that I've got left. It's been a long road to get to this point (hard to believe my WLS was more than 15 months ago!). I've come so far and I'm so close to the finish line -- I just don't want to throw in the towel now. I'm not aiming for perfection (after all, what is perfection?). I'm down to a size 12 pants now, which is something I couldn't have even dreamed of a year ago. I'm not shooting for an unrealistic size 6 or anything like that -- maybe a size 10? That doesn't seem so hard after how far I've come already (from a size 22/24).
So, now it's time for me to make time for ME! I'm going to do my best to get to the gym 4-5 times a week. If I have some company with me, that just makes it even more fun!
I leave for vacation in just about five weeks, so we'll see if I can tone anything up by then! My ultimate goal is next summer! Woohoo!
Until next time, I hope you all have a great week. Peace out!
So, I went on Friday and joined the LA Fitness and cancelled our YMCA membership. The greatest perk to the LA Fitness membership is that I can bring two guests with me at any time! My husband came with me on Friday night and we had a great workout together. Then, my friend Karen came with me this morning and we had a wonderful time (it was her birthday too!).
I feel much more comfortable at the new gym than I did at the YMCA -- for some reason, I was so intimidated at the Y. I don't know if it was the people or the facility, but it just didn't work for me. I'm very hopeful that my new gym will be easier for me to get my exercise in. I'm even going to try to take some classes this week!
I'm at the point now where I've been plateaued for about 8 months...stuck at a 100-101 pound weight loss. I'm very happy where I am, but would still love to lose another 10-15 pounds and tone the jiggle that I've got left. It's been a long road to get to this point (hard to believe my WLS was more than 15 months ago!). I've come so far and I'm so close to the finish line -- I just don't want to throw in the towel now. I'm not aiming for perfection (after all, what is perfection?). I'm down to a size 12 pants now, which is something I couldn't have even dreamed of a year ago. I'm not shooting for an unrealistic size 6 or anything like that -- maybe a size 10? That doesn't seem so hard after how far I've come already (from a size 22/24).
So, now it's time for me to make time for ME! I'm going to do my best to get to the gym 4-5 times a week. If I have some company with me, that just makes it even more fun!
I leave for vacation in just about five weeks, so we'll see if I can tone anything up by then! My ultimate goal is next summer! Woohoo!
Until next time, I hope you all have a great week. Peace out!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Summer is in full swing!!!
It's been a while since I've posted anything on here. Life just gets so busy sometimes. Between work, kid activities, and going back to grad school, I sometimes feel that I don't have any time to focus on myself -- meaning my "diet" and "exercise." I know that I've blogged about this before...and I wish I could say that I've been able to change some of these bad habits.
But, unfortunately, things haven't changed. I'm still struggling with the carbs and the lack of exercise. It's not that I would call myself an inactive person. It's just I can't fit a regular exercise workout into my daily routine.
As for my weight, I've been fortunate that I've been at the same plateau for about six months now. I teeter between 2-3 pounds and I'm really happy with where I am, but I would honestly like to lose another 10 pounds. I'm finally in a size 12 and I'm very comfortable here -- it's been a while since I've been here (11th grade, to be exact).
Now that it's swimsuit season, I notice all of the "wouldn't it be nice if's". Wouldn't it be nice if:
- I could lose just one more roll from my stomach
- I could have toner legs
- I could lose the jiggle from under my arms
These are all things that I'll have to work on as I continue this LIFE LONG journey. It's all worth it and so am I.
To all of my friends out there who are reading this and struggling with their own journey, we can do this together. Our decisions to have WLS was a huge decision in and of itself. Everything that we've been through all ready was well worth it. We will continue to have struggles throughout the next 2 years, 5 years, and throughout the rest of our lives. Just think of the wonderful new lives we've created for ourselves and remember that, in the end, WE ARE ALL WORTH IT!!!
But, unfortunately, things haven't changed. I'm still struggling with the carbs and the lack of exercise. It's not that I would call myself an inactive person. It's just I can't fit a regular exercise workout into my daily routine.
As for my weight, I've been fortunate that I've been at the same plateau for about six months now. I teeter between 2-3 pounds and I'm really happy with where I am, but I would honestly like to lose another 10 pounds. I'm finally in a size 12 and I'm very comfortable here -- it's been a while since I've been here (11th grade, to be exact).
Now that it's swimsuit season, I notice all of the "wouldn't it be nice if's". Wouldn't it be nice if:
- I could lose just one more roll from my stomach
- I could have toner legs
- I could lose the jiggle from under my arms
These are all things that I'll have to work on as I continue this LIFE LONG journey. It's all worth it and so am I.
To all of my friends out there who are reading this and struggling with their own journey, we can do this together. Our decisions to have WLS was a huge decision in and of itself. Everything that we've been through all ready was well worth it. We will continue to have struggles throughout the next 2 years, 5 years, and throughout the rest of our lives. Just think of the wonderful new lives we've created for ourselves and remember that, in the end, WE ARE ALL WORTH IT!!!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Quick Update!
Today, I had my one-year follow-up appointment with Dr. Boe. Everything is going well, and all of my bloodwork came back normal. No vitamin deficiencies and nothing to be worried about. We talked about me wanting to lose another 10-15 pounds and I've set some calorie and activity goals with the nutritionist. Hell, if I've already lost 100 pounds, one would think that another 10-15 pounds would be cake, right? NOT.
These last 10-15 pounds are the hardest as my body reached its plateau a few months back, and now I really have to work to lose any more. Don't get me wrong -- I'm extremely happy where I am right now, but those 10-15 pounds are something for me to work on and look forward to losing.
I'm just glad that my bloodwork looks good and I have no vitamin deficiencies. I've heard that a lot of WLS patients start having problems after a year or so because they stop taking all of their vitamins and get back to some old bad habits. I'm still very anal about my vitamin intake and my sugar control. I still read labels like a freak and make sure that my sugar content is below where it should be (less than 2 grams per serving).
I'm trying to rely on healthy snacks (Greek yogurt with fresh berries, almonds, etc.) instead of reaching for a carb fix. Most days, I reach my protein goal and calorie goal, but I know that I still need to work on getting more fluids in (coffee doesn't count, boo!).
It's been an amazing rollercoaster ride this past year...I can still remember back to one of my first blog posts after I had decided to have this surgery. I used a rollercoaster image to describe what this journey would be like, and it surely was true to life. A wild, exhiliarating, and sometimes unexpected rollercoaster ride...but one that I would take all over again if need be!!!
Until next time, peace out!
These last 10-15 pounds are the hardest as my body reached its plateau a few months back, and now I really have to work to lose any more. Don't get me wrong -- I'm extremely happy where I am right now, but those 10-15 pounds are something for me to work on and look forward to losing.
I'm just glad that my bloodwork looks good and I have no vitamin deficiencies. I've heard that a lot of WLS patients start having problems after a year or so because they stop taking all of their vitamins and get back to some old bad habits. I'm still very anal about my vitamin intake and my sugar control. I still read labels like a freak and make sure that my sugar content is below where it should be (less than 2 grams per serving).
I'm trying to rely on healthy snacks (Greek yogurt with fresh berries, almonds, etc.) instead of reaching for a carb fix. Most days, I reach my protein goal and calorie goal, but I know that I still need to work on getting more fluids in (coffee doesn't count, boo!).
It's been an amazing rollercoaster ride this past year...I can still remember back to one of my first blog posts after I had decided to have this surgery. I used a rollercoaster image to describe what this journey would be like, and it surely was true to life. A wild, exhiliarating, and sometimes unexpected rollercoaster ride...but one that I would take all over again if need be!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Friday, April 30, 2010
One year later!!!
Today is my one-year surgiversary! It's a beautiful day outside...the sun is shining...it's supposed to be a gorgeous 82 degrees. What a day to celebrate the new me!
I took a few minutes this morning (while drinking my morning coffee) to reflect on just how much has changed in my life in the past year.
1. Confidence. I no longer am embarrassed to walk into a room. I like the way I look and feel. Normal. That's all I ever wanted. To feel and look normal. This newfound confidence has even given me a boost at work. I serve as the spokesperson for a school district and have handled a few issues with the media lately. I feel that this newfound confidence really helped me react in these situations and I felt more confident being under pressure and in front of the news cameras. I can't imagine what it would have been like in those situations with the "old" me.
2. Clothing. I love buying clothing again, although my wallet doesn't. I'm finally in a size 12 -- that is somewhere that I haven't been since probably my junior year of high school (24 years ago!!).
3. Activity. I am no longer winded walking up a set of stairs or running around with my kids. I'm very much looking forward to this summer and doing lots of outdoor activities with my three young children.
There is so much to be happy for and so much has changed in the past year. I'm very grateful for the opportunity to restart my life, and am thankful for all of my family and friends who put up with me for the past year (especially those first few weeks).
Until next time, peace out!
I took a few minutes this morning (while drinking my morning coffee) to reflect on just how much has changed in my life in the past year.
1. Confidence. I no longer am embarrassed to walk into a room. I like the way I look and feel. Normal. That's all I ever wanted. To feel and look normal. This newfound confidence has even given me a boost at work. I serve as the spokesperson for a school district and have handled a few issues with the media lately. I feel that this newfound confidence really helped me react in these situations and I felt more confident being under pressure and in front of the news cameras. I can't imagine what it would have been like in those situations with the "old" me.
2. Clothing. I love buying clothing again, although my wallet doesn't. I'm finally in a size 12 -- that is somewhere that I haven't been since probably my junior year of high school (24 years ago!!).
3. Activity. I am no longer winded walking up a set of stairs or running around with my kids. I'm very much looking forward to this summer and doing lots of outdoor activities with my three young children.
There is so much to be happy for and so much has changed in the past year. I'm very grateful for the opportunity to restart my life, and am thankful for all of my family and friends who put up with me for the past year (especially those first few weeks).
Until next time, peace out!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Some people really piss me off!
So, I had a dentist appointment this morning and my hygienist (who hasn't seen me in 6 months) asked me how I'd lost so much weight. We talked for a bit about how I'm eating 5-6 small meals a day, eating proteins first, not eating any sugars, etc. Even after that, she still questioned me as if she didn't believe that I'd lost that much weight. I finally confided in her that I'd had WLS and explained that by no means was it easy and that I worked really, really hard to get where I am today.
Some people always look at the negative in things. My dental hygienist commented how great I looked and all, but had to throw in the cautionary comments about "Well, be careful because I know 3 people that had the surgery and they've gained it all back."
Why do people turn something positive into something negative? I just don't get it.
- Of course, I know that I have to be careful of what I eat for the rest of my life.
- Of course, I know that I cannot revert back to my old eating habits.
- Of course, I don't EVER want to look the way I did a year ago.
I am determined to be happy and healthy for the rest of my life. I'm just glad that I can take people's negative comments and let them go in one ear, and out the other. I have a hard shell, and I'm sure not going to let someone else's pessimism get me down!
Until next time, peace out!
Some people always look at the negative in things. My dental hygienist commented how great I looked and all, but had to throw in the cautionary comments about "Well, be careful because I know 3 people that had the surgery and they've gained it all back."
Why do people turn something positive into something negative? I just don't get it.
- Of course, I know that I have to be careful of what I eat for the rest of my life.
- Of course, I know that I cannot revert back to my old eating habits.
- Of course, I don't EVER want to look the way I did a year ago.
I am determined to be happy and healthy for the rest of my life. I'm just glad that I can take people's negative comments and let them go in one ear, and out the other. I have a hard shell, and I'm sure not going to let someone else's pessimism get me down!
Until next time, peace out!
Monday, April 26, 2010
A New Day...
OK, so I think that I've mentioned the problem that I've been having lately with carbs. Some of my Barix friends suggested that I try a 5-day pouch test. That involves going back to the basics -- only liquids for the first two days and then gradually weening back onto solid foods. It's supposed to help cure the addiction to carbs, which I really need. However, horrible thoughts and memories of the 10-day pre-surgery liquid diet are still on my mind, and I don't think I'm ready for anything that drastic yet.
That said, I am going to start a refresher today in the basics. I spent Saturday and Sunday at the gym and did cardio, weights, and swimming. I really enjoyed myself and it was really nice to finally get back into that routine. I look forward to spending a few hours on me each week.
I got on the scale this morning and I was back down to 171 (after going up to 176 slightly a few days ago). I don't know if I was just retaining water or if those carbs I've been snacking on lately finally reared their ugly face and added a few pounds on my hips. Either way, I'm focusing on getting down a few more pounds. My one-year surgiversary is this coming Friday. If you would have asked me a year ago if I ever thought it was possible that I'd be down 100 pounds in one year, I would have laughed in your face. Seriously.
I'd like to spend the next few months focusing on my exercise -- toning what I have. Being in a swimsuit this weekend at the Y made me realize that I'm not ready for the beach and vacation yet. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE where I am, but I'd honestly like to lose another 10 pounds (especially right around the spare tire around my hips). Being at 160 pounds is my ultimate goal, and I know that I won't get there without a lot of a hard work and exercise. And a focused and determined mind -- I need to limit my carbs and increase my fruits and vegetables. I need to drastically increase my water intake.
Hell, I've already lost 100 pounds -- another 10 shouldn't be a problem, right? Ha. Those first 100 pounds almost fell off my bones. These last 10 pounds are going to be a challenge, but I'm up for the challenge! I've come a long way and I am not going to let this challenge beat me! Game on!
Until next time, peace out! Have a great week everyone!!
That said, I am going to start a refresher today in the basics. I spent Saturday and Sunday at the gym and did cardio, weights, and swimming. I really enjoyed myself and it was really nice to finally get back into that routine. I look forward to spending a few hours on me each week.
I got on the scale this morning and I was back down to 171 (after going up to 176 slightly a few days ago). I don't know if I was just retaining water or if those carbs I've been snacking on lately finally reared their ugly face and added a few pounds on my hips. Either way, I'm focusing on getting down a few more pounds. My one-year surgiversary is this coming Friday. If you would have asked me a year ago if I ever thought it was possible that I'd be down 100 pounds in one year, I would have laughed in your face. Seriously.
I'd like to spend the next few months focusing on my exercise -- toning what I have. Being in a swimsuit this weekend at the Y made me realize that I'm not ready for the beach and vacation yet. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE where I am, but I'd honestly like to lose another 10 pounds (especially right around the spare tire around my hips). Being at 160 pounds is my ultimate goal, and I know that I won't get there without a lot of a hard work and exercise. And a focused and determined mind -- I need to limit my carbs and increase my fruits and vegetables. I need to drastically increase my water intake.
Hell, I've already lost 100 pounds -- another 10 shouldn't be a problem, right? Ha. Those first 100 pounds almost fell off my bones. These last 10 pounds are going to be a challenge, but I'm up for the challenge! I've come a long way and I am not going to let this challenge beat me! Game on!
Until next time, peace out! Have a great week everyone!!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Reality is here...
I am going to be celebrating my one-year surgiversary next Friday -- I can't believe it's really been an entire year. I am down just about 100 pounds, although the number on the scale has gone up a few pounds in the last 2-3 weeks.
For the first time since surgery, I actually feel that my old appetite is back. I don't know if this is normal, but I'd be willing to bet money that it is. I remember seeing lots of postings on here about people struggling after a year out. Well, I suppose it's finally my turn.
I have had this continual desire to graze for about a month now. Unfortunately, the grazing consists of carbs -- pretzels, crackers, and these Ritz Crackerfuls that I'm addicted to.
I'm trying to think of the reason why my appetite has suddenly become less than desirable, and I think that I've pinpointed one of the reasons. In addition to having his grazing problem, I've also substantially increased my intake of caffeine. Whereas I used to be fine with a small cup of coffee each morning, I now find myself having another cup in the afternoon at work and sometimes even having another cup when I get home from work at night. I do remember reading that caffeine is an appetitie stimulant, so maybe that's the reason for my increased appetite?
I really need to decrease my caffeine and carb intake and increase my activity and exercise. The weather is getting nicer out, and I need to focus on being outside. As soon as I sign off of this blog, I'm taking the kids to the YMCA for some swimming. I think I'll work out on the eliptical for 30 minutes first, but then maybe I'll enjoy a relaxing swim.
Until next time, peace out!
For the first time since surgery, I actually feel that my old appetite is back. I don't know if this is normal, but I'd be willing to bet money that it is. I remember seeing lots of postings on here about people struggling after a year out. Well, I suppose it's finally my turn.
I have had this continual desire to graze for about a month now. Unfortunately, the grazing consists of carbs -- pretzels, crackers, and these Ritz Crackerfuls that I'm addicted to.
I'm trying to think of the reason why my appetite has suddenly become less than desirable, and I think that I've pinpointed one of the reasons. In addition to having his grazing problem, I've also substantially increased my intake of caffeine. Whereas I used to be fine with a small cup of coffee each morning, I now find myself having another cup in the afternoon at work and sometimes even having another cup when I get home from work at night. I do remember reading that caffeine is an appetitie stimulant, so maybe that's the reason for my increased appetite?
I really need to decrease my caffeine and carb intake and increase my activity and exercise. The weather is getting nicer out, and I need to focus on being outside. As soon as I sign off of this blog, I'm taking the kids to the YMCA for some swimming. I think I'll work out on the eliptical for 30 minutes first, but then maybe I'll enjoy a relaxing swim.
Until next time, peace out!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Do You Share, or Do You Lie?
I have a question for all of those WLS patients: do you share how you've lost your weight with others who ask? Up to this point, I have always been very open when asked. I tell people that I had gastric bypass surgery. I don't try to hide it. It's been a very positive thing for me. Other than the minor stricture that I had at 3 months out, my recovery has been normal and I've adapted well to my new way of living and eating.
However, this weekend, I was at an event with my daughter and her Girl Scouts troop. A mom who I hardly know comes over to me and says almost matter-of-factly "I didn't know you had gastric bypass surgery??" As if she was my BFF and she was pissed that I hadn't told her. First of all, I hardly know this woman. Second of all, I wondered how she had found out. So, I asked. She told me that one of the other moms was talking about it...and well, you know the rest...
I told her the whole story and she seemed very surprised. It got me to thinking whether or not I'm doing the right thing by revealing that I had WLS. Does it have a stigma related to it that I'm just not seeing? Do people say how wonderful it is to your face, and then go behind your back gossiping that "I can't believe what she did..."?? For me, this has been an amazing experience and one that has changed my life for the positive. Is there the expectation that I will gain the weight back, because many do? Do people think I took the easy way out? Why is doing something positive for yourself frowned upon?
I guess I'm still just a little peeved by the reaction that this woman had. Maybe I shouldn't give two shits because she's really not a friend and is barely even an acquaintance.
I was just wondering what you all thought. Please post a comment if you have time.
Until next time, peace out!
However, this weekend, I was at an event with my daughter and her Girl Scouts troop. A mom who I hardly know comes over to me and says almost matter-of-factly "I didn't know you had gastric bypass surgery??" As if she was my BFF and she was pissed that I hadn't told her. First of all, I hardly know this woman. Second of all, I wondered how she had found out. So, I asked. She told me that one of the other moms was talking about it...and well, you know the rest...
I told her the whole story and she seemed very surprised. It got me to thinking whether or not I'm doing the right thing by revealing that I had WLS. Does it have a stigma related to it that I'm just not seeing? Do people say how wonderful it is to your face, and then go behind your back gossiping that "I can't believe what she did..."?? For me, this has been an amazing experience and one that has changed my life for the positive. Is there the expectation that I will gain the weight back, because many do? Do people think I took the easy way out? Why is doing something positive for yourself frowned upon?
I guess I'm still just a little peeved by the reaction that this woman had. Maybe I shouldn't give two shits because she's really not a friend and is barely even an acquaintance.
I was just wondering what you all thought. Please post a comment if you have time.
Until next time, peace out!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Spring has Sprung!
Spring is definitely here. New life is everywhere you look. Flowers peering through the soil, buds blooming on the trees, and even the sounds of the birds reminds you that spring is here. As I sit at my kitchen table looking outside at all the new life, I can't help thinking about the new life that I now have. It is amazing to think how different I am now over how I was just a year ago.
My best friend was at my house this morning (for my daughter's First Communion) and someone took a picture of us. The same time last year (mid-April), we were at my sister-in-law's baby shower and also took pictures. For shits and giggles, I put the two pictures together...and WOW. Words cannot describe the feeling I had when I looked at the pictures side by side. I honestly feel sick in my stomach when I look at how large I used to be. I really can't fathom how I let myself get that big!!! See for yourself. Here we are:
As I look back at that photo of myself, all those horrible thoughts and feelings of being overweight come flooding back. I never, and I repeat never, want to look anything remotely that horrible again!
So, this Spring, Lisa and I both have something to be happy about -- our new lives. Spring is a season for renewal, and Lisa and both are blessed to have had the opportunity to renew ourselves.
Here's to you, Lisa...
My best friend was at my house this morning (for my daughter's First Communion) and someone took a picture of us. The same time last year (mid-April), we were at my sister-in-law's baby shower and also took pictures. For shits and giggles, I put the two pictures together...and WOW. Words cannot describe the feeling I had when I looked at the pictures side by side. I honestly feel sick in my stomach when I look at how large I used to be. I really can't fathom how I let myself get that big!!! See for yourself. Here we are:
As I look back at that photo of myself, all those horrible thoughts and feelings of being overweight come flooding back. I never, and I repeat never, want to look anything remotely that horrible again!
So, this Spring, Lisa and I both have something to be happy about -- our new lives. Spring is a season for renewal, and Lisa and both are blessed to have had the opportunity to renew ourselves.
Here's to you, Lisa...
Saturday, April 3, 2010
I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends!
I had a wonderfully inspiring day today. For the first time since my surgery, I attended a support group meeting at Barix Clinics in Langhorne. My best friend attended last month and invited me to go along with her today. Seriously, it's just one of those things that I kept saying "Yea, I'll get there one of these months." But, then one month becomes another month...and well, you get the picture.
Barix is about an hour from my house, so it's not a quick trip. But, it was well worth the ride (especially having some catch up time with Lisa in the car!). There were about 30-40 people there today and it was really interesting hearing everyone's stories. We were split into two groups: pre-op patients and those up to 3 months out, and then the rest of us (3 months out of surgery and up). We basically went around the group and shared things on our mind. Some people were having specific problems (fear of returning to sugars, putting on a few pounds of late, etc.). Others just shared that they are feeling great and are happy to be where they are. I fit into the latter group (insert grin here).
For the most part, I am happy and feel great. I'm really trying to get my water intake up and my carb intake down. Carbs have always been a problem for me, and that's the reason why I got in the situation I was in to start with. It is a really tough thing trying to curb those cravings. I guess it could be worse...a few pretzels are surely better than a few jellybeans, right? I really have no craving for sugars, which is a good thing. A lot of people at today's support group meeting talked about their struggles with cravings for cookies, chocolate, cakes, etc. Although I'm just a year out, those cravings haven't returned for me.
I have been receiving some negative vibes lately from some folks about my "poor eating habits" and how they've continued -- even after surgery. I don't know what people think when they hear about this surgery. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all for everything. We still struggle with the same addictions and weight problems that we did before surgery. The surgery was just a tool to give us a jump start on a new life. We still have to work on maintaining, exercising, etc. -- just like anyone else on any other kind of diet.
I will be the first one to admit that when I go out to eat (which isn't too often), I do treat myself. It's not like I eat that way all the time. A few gravy fries or a few broccoli bites aren't the end of the world. My homemade macaroni and cheese is definitely a treat! It's not like I eat that stuff five times a week. It's a treat, and anything in moderation is acceptable. It's unrealistic to think I could go through the rest of my life and never have that stuff again. For the most part, I make sure I eat a salad once a day, get some sort of protein in (chicken, pork), and try to limit the carb intake.
I know that I'm not perfect -- and I don't claim to be. I know that this will be a struggle for the remainder of my life -- and I don't think it will be easy.
But, what I do know is that I have been given a new lease on life. And I will do whatever it takes to keep living this way -- healthy and enjoying myself and living life to the fullest. Oh, and I will also do my best to ignore all the negative vibes that come my way. I'm proud of how far that I've come, and I sure the hell aren't going to let someone get me down because they are waving a finger at me or rolling their eyes at me because I have a slice of pizza or a few french fries.
Until next time, peace out!
Barix is about an hour from my house, so it's not a quick trip. But, it was well worth the ride (especially having some catch up time with Lisa in the car!). There were about 30-40 people there today and it was really interesting hearing everyone's stories. We were split into two groups: pre-op patients and those up to 3 months out, and then the rest of us (3 months out of surgery and up). We basically went around the group and shared things on our mind. Some people were having specific problems (fear of returning to sugars, putting on a few pounds of late, etc.). Others just shared that they are feeling great and are happy to be where they are. I fit into the latter group (insert grin here).
For the most part, I am happy and feel great. I'm really trying to get my water intake up and my carb intake down. Carbs have always been a problem for me, and that's the reason why I got in the situation I was in to start with. It is a really tough thing trying to curb those cravings. I guess it could be worse...a few pretzels are surely better than a few jellybeans, right? I really have no craving for sugars, which is a good thing. A lot of people at today's support group meeting talked about their struggles with cravings for cookies, chocolate, cakes, etc. Although I'm just a year out, those cravings haven't returned for me.
I have been receiving some negative vibes lately from some folks about my "poor eating habits" and how they've continued -- even after surgery. I don't know what people think when they hear about this surgery. Weight loss surgery is not a cure all for everything. We still struggle with the same addictions and weight problems that we did before surgery. The surgery was just a tool to give us a jump start on a new life. We still have to work on maintaining, exercising, etc. -- just like anyone else on any other kind of diet.
I will be the first one to admit that when I go out to eat (which isn't too often), I do treat myself. It's not like I eat that way all the time. A few gravy fries or a few broccoli bites aren't the end of the world. My homemade macaroni and cheese is definitely a treat! It's not like I eat that stuff five times a week. It's a treat, and anything in moderation is acceptable. It's unrealistic to think I could go through the rest of my life and never have that stuff again. For the most part, I make sure I eat a salad once a day, get some sort of protein in (chicken, pork), and try to limit the carb intake.
I know that I'm not perfect -- and I don't claim to be. I know that this will be a struggle for the remainder of my life -- and I don't think it will be easy.
But, what I do know is that I have been given a new lease on life. And I will do whatever it takes to keep living this way -- healthy and enjoying myself and living life to the fullest. Oh, and I will also do my best to ignore all the negative vibes that come my way. I'm proud of how far that I've come, and I sure the hell aren't going to let someone get me down because they are waving a finger at me or rolling their eyes at me because I have a slice of pizza or a few french fries.
Until next time, peace out!
Monday, March 29, 2010
11 Months Ago...
Wow, I really can't believe it's been 11 whole months since I had my WLS. In those 11 months, my life has changed so dramatically. I feel like the same person on the inside (well, maybe a little bit more confident), but the outside is so different. My husband took a photo of me to update my Facebook profile picture this weekend, and I had to do a second look to make sure it was me. What a wonderfully refreshing feeling that was!
For the record, I am down a total of 101 pounds. My weight fluctuates between 170 and 172, depending on what time of the day it is (and how many snacks I've eaten that day!). I have been at that mark for about 3-4 months now, with no major movement.
Some things that I need to work on (and these will continue to be a struggle for me for the rest of my life, no doubt):
1. More exercise - seems that there's never enough time in the day to get any regular exercise in. I do try to do at least 20-30 minutes on my treadmill a few times a week, but I will be the first to admit that those have been few and far between the last two months.
2. Eat less carbs - this has always been a problem for me. The urge to graze still comes back every once and a while, but of course, I cannot eat as much as I used to. Whereas before surgery, I could have sat down and snacked on an entire bag of pretzels or chips, now I have a handful and I'm content. What I need to work on is eating healthier snacks. Instead of crackers or pretzels, I have to make an effort to eat a piece of fruit or a piece of cheese. It's something that I'm aware of, but a carb addiction really is a hard habit to break.
Overall, I feel so fortunate to have had this much success with my WLS. I know it's a life long commitment, and something I can't give up on. I'm worth it, after all!
Until next time, peace out!
For the record, I am down a total of 101 pounds. My weight fluctuates between 170 and 172, depending on what time of the day it is (and how many snacks I've eaten that day!). I have been at that mark for about 3-4 months now, with no major movement.
Some things that I need to work on (and these will continue to be a struggle for me for the rest of my life, no doubt):
1. More exercise - seems that there's never enough time in the day to get any regular exercise in. I do try to do at least 20-30 minutes on my treadmill a few times a week, but I will be the first to admit that those have been few and far between the last two months.
2. Eat less carbs - this has always been a problem for me. The urge to graze still comes back every once and a while, but of course, I cannot eat as much as I used to. Whereas before surgery, I could have sat down and snacked on an entire bag of pretzels or chips, now I have a handful and I'm content. What I need to work on is eating healthier snacks. Instead of crackers or pretzels, I have to make an effort to eat a piece of fruit or a piece of cheese. It's something that I'm aware of, but a carb addiction really is a hard habit to break.
Overall, I feel so fortunate to have had this much success with my WLS. I know it's a life long commitment, and something I can't give up on. I'm worth it, after all!
Until next time, peace out!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Good day...bad day!
Well, my day started off wonderfully this morning. I got on the scale for the first time in about a week...and low and behold, I have finally hit 100 pounds lost! I almost couldn't believe my eyes. I have been stuck in a holding pattern for the last 2-3 months -- teetering between 95 pounds lost and 97 pounds lost. What a wonderful, exhiliarating feeling it was to see that scale this morning!
So, that's how my day started. As I sat down to enjoy my morning cup of coffee a few minutes later, my day took a turn for the worst. I hadn't even taken my first sip of my morning "wake up call" when my cell phone rang and I received a phone call from my boss, the superintendent of the school district I work for. He asked if I could come in immediately -- one of our school buses was involved in an accident and the passenger in the car that was also involved was killed. Being the communications person for the district, I needed to get in immediately to deal with the media influx.
Needless to say, dinner tonight was my first meal of the day -- it was a very long and hard day. So, as I write this note tonight, I am thinking of the wonderful start to my day...and I will take this exhiliarating feeling with me to bed. It will be a short-lived feeling as I need to be out of the house at the crack of dawn to head to our school building to help with media control again (hopefully there won't be any, but you never know).
So, until next time, peace out and wishes for a wonderful day to you all!
So, that's how my day started. As I sat down to enjoy my morning cup of coffee a few minutes later, my day took a turn for the worst. I hadn't even taken my first sip of my morning "wake up call" when my cell phone rang and I received a phone call from my boss, the superintendent of the school district I work for. He asked if I could come in immediately -- one of our school buses was involved in an accident and the passenger in the car that was also involved was killed. Being the communications person for the district, I needed to get in immediately to deal with the media influx.
Needless to say, dinner tonight was my first meal of the day -- it was a very long and hard day. So, as I write this note tonight, I am thinking of the wonderful start to my day...and I will take this exhiliarating feeling with me to bed. It will be a short-lived feeling as I need to be out of the house at the crack of dawn to head to our school building to help with media control again (hopefully there won't be any, but you never know).
So, until next time, peace out and wishes for a wonderful day to you all!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Feeling really good...for the first time in my life!
I've finally started being accountable for that New Year's Resolution that I've made so many years...lose weight...get in shape...eat healthier.
For the first time in my entire life, I can actually say that I'm taking the bull by the horns and I'm making it happen. The WLS last April was the first step into making this frequently-requested New Year's Resolution a reality. The WLS has given me the tool that I needed to restart my life.
So far, I've lost 95 pounds...gone from a size 22/24 to a size 12/14...and have become more active than I ever thought possible. I am trying my darnest to exercise at least 3-4 times a week. For the last couple of weeks, that's mostly meant 30 minutes/night on the treadmill in my basement.
Tonight, for the first time in 386 days (yes, that's right), I hopped onto the Wii Fit. I had fun hula hooping, running, and doing step aerobics. It was a nice warmup for the treadmill tonight. What a moment it was when I did my body test and it told me that I lost 86 pounds since the last time I was on. I was a little disappointed, however, when the Wii Fit told me that my body age was 45 -- I'm only 40! That's bad enough -- I don't need someone telling me (machine or not) that I'm any older than I really am!
Anyway, I'm going to try to do the Wii Fit a few times a week in addition to cardio -- it's a fun way to do some strength training and aerobics without ever having to leave the living room.
I had another one of those "moments" today when one of my principals stopped by my office and said: "Professionally speaking, I want to tell you how awesome you look. You must be so proud of yourself." I felt all warm inside receiving such a nice compliment, and politely replied "I feel really good, and that's what matters."
Several people have asked me how I lost so much weight, and I honestly don't hide the fact that I had WLS. There's no way that I could have done this all on my own, and I really am proud of how far I've come. I can't take all of the credit for it, and I have no problem telling people that I had WLS. It can be a tremendous tool for someone who was in the same boat as I was, and I think it's something to be considered for anyone overweight. It's not for everyone, however, and demands careful research and thought!
Anyway, I wish everyone a good week. Until next time, peace out!
For the first time in my entire life, I can actually say that I'm taking the bull by the horns and I'm making it happen. The WLS last April was the first step into making this frequently-requested New Year's Resolution a reality. The WLS has given me the tool that I needed to restart my life.
So far, I've lost 95 pounds...gone from a size 22/24 to a size 12/14...and have become more active than I ever thought possible. I am trying my darnest to exercise at least 3-4 times a week. For the last couple of weeks, that's mostly meant 30 minutes/night on the treadmill in my basement.
Tonight, for the first time in 386 days (yes, that's right), I hopped onto the Wii Fit. I had fun hula hooping, running, and doing step aerobics. It was a nice warmup for the treadmill tonight. What a moment it was when I did my body test and it told me that I lost 86 pounds since the last time I was on. I was a little disappointed, however, when the Wii Fit told me that my body age was 45 -- I'm only 40! That's bad enough -- I don't need someone telling me (machine or not) that I'm any older than I really am!
Anyway, I'm going to try to do the Wii Fit a few times a week in addition to cardio -- it's a fun way to do some strength training and aerobics without ever having to leave the living room.
I had another one of those "moments" today when one of my principals stopped by my office and said: "Professionally speaking, I want to tell you how awesome you look. You must be so proud of yourself." I felt all warm inside receiving such a nice compliment, and politely replied "I feel really good, and that's what matters."
Several people have asked me how I lost so much weight, and I honestly don't hide the fact that I had WLS. There's no way that I could have done this all on my own, and I really am proud of how far I've come. I can't take all of the credit for it, and I have no problem telling people that I had WLS. It can be a tremendous tool for someone who was in the same boat as I was, and I think it's something to be considered for anyone overweight. It's not for everyone, however, and demands careful research and thought!
Anyway, I wish everyone a good week. Until next time, peace out!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Had My Nine-Month Checkup Today!
Just got back from my nine-month checkup at Barix this morning. According to their scales, I'm down a total of 93 pounds since my surgery on April 30th. I'm happy with that, but as I discussed with my doctor today, my eventual goal is 160 pounds -- another 18 pounds to lose. I'm not in any rush. I'm quite pleased with how I look and *feel* right now. For the most part, it's just toning and some refining that needs to be done.
The weight loss has substantially slowed down -- if not stopped -- so I know that exercise is what I need to focus on now. I got on the treadmill last night for the first time in weeks (I know, bad Shelly). I do enjoy walking and jogging on the treadmill, and I really do enjoy going to the YMCA -- when I can get there. I am trying to get up 3-4 mornings a week at least 30 minutes early, just so I can get down on the treadmill. I'm going to rely on my husband (c'mon, Gary) to help me with this as I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON and would sleep until the last possible second, if left to me!
Anyway, back to my checkup appointment today. My bloodwork was all excellent, with the exception of a slight iron deficiency. I have always had a problem with my iron levels, so this wasn't a shock to me. According to my doctor and the nutritionist, the only change I need to implement is to take my iron pills more consistently and every day (I was only taking every other day). I'm going to try a new chewable iron supplement from Barix -- one that doesn't have the typical side effects from iron intake. We'll see how that goes! :)
My doctor was very pleased with my progress and with how I look. He commented that I don't look "hollow" like some patients he's seen that have lost almost 100 pounds. That made me smile inside.
Oh, I received another positive comment yesterday that I thought I'd share. I had an appointment at Cabrini College to talk about finishing my Master's Degree. (I only need four classes to finish, so I'm going to start this summer back at graduate school -- something else to look forward to!). Anyway, while meeting with the Dean of Graduate Studies, he commented on how "well-polished" of a woman that I was. I had a class with him three years ago, and he noted how different I look. It made me feel *very* good inside and made me think about the person that I've become -- and also about the person that I used to be.
With this *new* me has come a definite sense of confidence. Not an overbearing "look at me" type of confidence (at least, I hope it doesn't come off that way). Rather, one that I feel comfortable with myself and being in any situation. I'm more confident at work -- in my personal life -- and around my family. It really is a great feeling and one that I hope will continue for a while, if not forever.
Enough of my rambling. I wish you alla wonderful week. Until next time, peace out!
The weight loss has substantially slowed down -- if not stopped -- so I know that exercise is what I need to focus on now. I got on the treadmill last night for the first time in weeks (I know, bad Shelly). I do enjoy walking and jogging on the treadmill, and I really do enjoy going to the YMCA -- when I can get there. I am trying to get up 3-4 mornings a week at least 30 minutes early, just so I can get down on the treadmill. I'm going to rely on my husband (c'mon, Gary) to help me with this as I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON and would sleep until the last possible second, if left to me!
Anyway, back to my checkup appointment today. My bloodwork was all excellent, with the exception of a slight iron deficiency. I have always had a problem with my iron levels, so this wasn't a shock to me. According to my doctor and the nutritionist, the only change I need to implement is to take my iron pills more consistently and every day (I was only taking every other day). I'm going to try a new chewable iron supplement from Barix -- one that doesn't have the typical side effects from iron intake. We'll see how that goes! :)
My doctor was very pleased with my progress and with how I look. He commented that I don't look "hollow" like some patients he's seen that have lost almost 100 pounds. That made me smile inside.
Oh, I received another positive comment yesterday that I thought I'd share. I had an appointment at Cabrini College to talk about finishing my Master's Degree. (I only need four classes to finish, so I'm going to start this summer back at graduate school -- something else to look forward to!). Anyway, while meeting with the Dean of Graduate Studies, he commented on how "well-polished" of a woman that I was. I had a class with him three years ago, and he noted how different I look. It made me feel *very* good inside and made me think about the person that I've become -- and also about the person that I used to be.
With this *new* me has come a definite sense of confidence. Not an overbearing "look at me" type of confidence (at least, I hope it doesn't come off that way). Rather, one that I feel comfortable with myself and being in any situation. I'm more confident at work -- in my personal life -- and around my family. It really is a great feeling and one that I hope will continue for a while, if not forever.
Enough of my rambling. I wish you alla wonderful week. Until next time, peace out!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Stuck in a rut...
I've been hovering at the 97-pounds lost mark for a few months now. I knew that the weightloss would eventually slow down, so I should have expected this. I really am quite happy with how I look and feel, but I'd like to lose another 10-15 pounds and "firm up" my body. I'm 5'8" in height, and my current weight is 173 pounds. That's the lowest I've been since high school, so I really am quite happy.
I don't know what it is, but I just can't get myself motivated to exercise. I can't use the excuse that I don't have enough time because I really do. I spend several hours a week doing non-essential things such as Facebook, so I really should turn that time into doing something useful for myself.
As soon as I get done this blog and get off the computer, I'm going to go put my exercise clothes and sneakers on and go downstairs to the treadmill. Really, I have no excuse. I need to get this body into shape!!!
So, hopefully by my next blog, I'll be sharing about how much time I'm spending on the treadmill or at the YMCA instead of how much time I'm wasting on Facebook or surfing the net. Until next time, peace out!
I don't know what it is, but I just can't get myself motivated to exercise. I can't use the excuse that I don't have enough time because I really do. I spend several hours a week doing non-essential things such as Facebook, so I really should turn that time into doing something useful for myself.
As soon as I get done this blog and get off the computer, I'm going to go put my exercise clothes and sneakers on and go downstairs to the treadmill. Really, I have no excuse. I need to get this body into shape!!!
So, hopefully by my next blog, I'll be sharing about how much time I'm spending on the treadmill or at the YMCA instead of how much time I'm wasting on Facebook or surfing the net. Until next time, peace out!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Eight months out!
Tomorrow will be eight months since I had my WLS. I really can't believe how quickly time has flown right by. It seems like just yesterday that I was sipping those nasty protein shakes and trying desperately to get all my protein in so my hair wouldn't fall out. Wow, it's amazing how much things can change in eight months.
Officially, I am down 95 pounds and I've gone from a size 22/24 (or 26/28 in some tops) to a size 12 or 14 (depending on the style of clothing). I never would have imagined that my life could have changed so much. I am, for the first time since high school, comfortable with how I look. I feel great and my energy level, for the most part, is the best it's ever been.
Of course, I am the first one to admit that there are some things that I need to work on. With the new year right around the corner, I have taken some time to think about the changes that I need to make in the new year. After all, I was given this wonderful "tool" and this new lease on life, so now it's my turn to make it all worth it.
Here is my list of resolutions for the new year:
1. Drink more water. This is something that I've never been good at. No matter what diet I was on, I would start out strong, drinking all my water every day. But, that doesn't last long. I'm just not a big water drinker. Unless I have a water jug glued to my hands, it's something that I simply don't think about while at work or home. I vow to make this a priority as I need to drink water to feel healthier and help clean my body out.
2. Exercise, exercise, and more exercise. Again, not something that I enjoy or that comes naturally to me. After losing the 95 pounds, I can say that I'm starting to notice some more jiggle to my wiggle. I have a good 5-6 months before spring/summer is here, so I really need to get my ass in gear now rather than later. I have a membership to the YMCA, and rarely go because it's hard to fit into my schedule (full-time job and three kids at home). I do have a treadmill in my basement, so I need to start utilizing that more when I can't get to the YMCA.
3. Less carbs. Seems that I've fallen back into a bad habit of relying on carbs. I can honestly say that I am a carb addict - have always been and probably always will be. I need to better plan my menu and snacks so that I eat less carbs, and more healthy foods.
4. More veggies and fruits. Again, this is something that I need to plan better and more of. I'm not a huge veggie fan, but I do need to concentrate more on eating the veggies that I do like.
I've been sort of at a standstill for the past month or so, hovering between a 93-pound and a 97-pound weightloss. That 100-pound milestone is right around the corner, and I really would like to get there in January. What a wonderful way to start of 2010, wouldn't you think so?
Well, best wishes to you for a happy 2010. May the new year bring you whatever your little heart desires. Peace out!
Officially, I am down 95 pounds and I've gone from a size 22/24 (or 26/28 in some tops) to a size 12 or 14 (depending on the style of clothing). I never would have imagined that my life could have changed so much. I am, for the first time since high school, comfortable with how I look. I feel great and my energy level, for the most part, is the best it's ever been.
Of course, I am the first one to admit that there are some things that I need to work on. With the new year right around the corner, I have taken some time to think about the changes that I need to make in the new year. After all, I was given this wonderful "tool" and this new lease on life, so now it's my turn to make it all worth it.
Here is my list of resolutions for the new year:
1. Drink more water. This is something that I've never been good at. No matter what diet I was on, I would start out strong, drinking all my water every day. But, that doesn't last long. I'm just not a big water drinker. Unless I have a water jug glued to my hands, it's something that I simply don't think about while at work or home. I vow to make this a priority as I need to drink water to feel healthier and help clean my body out.
2. Exercise, exercise, and more exercise. Again, not something that I enjoy or that comes naturally to me. After losing the 95 pounds, I can say that I'm starting to notice some more jiggle to my wiggle. I have a good 5-6 months before spring/summer is here, so I really need to get my ass in gear now rather than later. I have a membership to the YMCA, and rarely go because it's hard to fit into my schedule (full-time job and three kids at home). I do have a treadmill in my basement, so I need to start utilizing that more when I can't get to the YMCA.
3. Less carbs. Seems that I've fallen back into a bad habit of relying on carbs. I can honestly say that I am a carb addict - have always been and probably always will be. I need to better plan my menu and snacks so that I eat less carbs, and more healthy foods.
4. More veggies and fruits. Again, this is something that I need to plan better and more of. I'm not a huge veggie fan, but I do need to concentrate more on eating the veggies that I do like.
I've been sort of at a standstill for the past month or so, hovering between a 93-pound and a 97-pound weightloss. That 100-pound milestone is right around the corner, and I really would like to get there in January. What a wonderful way to start of 2010, wouldn't you think so?
Well, best wishes to you for a happy 2010. May the new year bring you whatever your little heart desires. Peace out!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Made it through turkey day without any problems...
I was, to say the least, really scared about Thanksgiving Dinner. After all, it was the first one with this new stomach of mine. I was afraid that I'd overeat and stuff myself to the gills and then regret it later in the day. Carbs, my downfall, would take over once again and I'd have to admit defeat. Or so I thought.
For the first time in 8 years, I was NOT cooking. My brother and his wife graciously offered to cook Thanksgiving dinner.
I will admit that I probably ate more carbs than I should have. Turkey. Stuffing. Mashed potatoes. Oh, and some of my homemade macaroni and cheese (my "big" contribution to the Thanksgiving feast). Should I have had green beans, maybe some peas, and less carbs? Sure. But this was Thanksgiving and I was sure as hell going to enjoy it with what I really wanted.
So, I fixed my plate with little helpings (probably half the size as last year's) of my favorites. I ate slowly and made sure that I chewed everything well. I am pleased to report that I had absolutely no problems. I felt full after dinner, but not busting at the seams like I have in years past.
I enjoyed the day, the company, and the good food (aka carbs) for just that one day. It just goes to show you that poor, unhealthy eating habits of the past don't always have to come back to bite you in the ass!
In the meantime, I was seaching my computer for something and came across this awful photo of me from April (right before my WLS). I posted a recent photo of me next to it just for comparison and holy crap. I almost didn't recognize myself. See for yourself.
BEFORE:
AFTER:
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Wow, I really can't believe I ever let myself get to that point.
Anyway, that is the OLD me. I'm loving the NEW me and the healthy, normal lifestyle.
Until next time, peace out!
For the first time in 8 years, I was NOT cooking. My brother and his wife graciously offered to cook Thanksgiving dinner.
I will admit that I probably ate more carbs than I should have. Turkey. Stuffing. Mashed potatoes. Oh, and some of my homemade macaroni and cheese (my "big" contribution to the Thanksgiving feast). Should I have had green beans, maybe some peas, and less carbs? Sure. But this was Thanksgiving and I was sure as hell going to enjoy it with what I really wanted.
So, I fixed my plate with little helpings (probably half the size as last year's) of my favorites. I ate slowly and made sure that I chewed everything well. I am pleased to report that I had absolutely no problems. I felt full after dinner, but not busting at the seams like I have in years past.
I enjoyed the day, the company, and the good food (aka carbs) for just that one day. It just goes to show you that poor, unhealthy eating habits of the past don't always have to come back to bite you in the ass!
In the meantime, I was seaching my computer for something and came across this awful photo of me from April (right before my WLS). I posted a recent photo of me next to it just for comparison and holy crap. I almost didn't recognize myself. See for yourself.
BEFORE:
AFTER:
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Wow, I really can't believe I ever let myself get to that point.
Anyway, that is the OLD me. I'm loving the NEW me and the healthy, normal lifestyle.
Until next time, peace out!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Slowly but surely...
It's been almost seven months since my WLS and I'm still trudging along strongly. I am down a total of 92 pounds and I've gone from a size 22/24 (or 26/28 in some shirts) down to a size 12/14. I've really slowed down a lot the last two months or so, which is to be expected of course.
My bloodwork at my six-month check-up was great -- no vitamin deficiencies or any issues to be concerned with. I've been really focusing on making sure I get all my vitamins in each and every day. Here is my typical vitamin schedule:
Morning
Flintstones Complete chewable vitamin
Vitamin D (1000 IU plus 117 mg calcium)
Citrical Calcium Citrate w/Vitamin D (500 IU vitamin D plus 400 mg calcium)
B12 sublingual dot (1-2 – 500 mcg each)
B-1 tablet (100 mg of B-1/thiamin and 80 mcg of calcium and 24 mg of phosphorus)
Dinnertime
Flintstones Complete chewable vitamin
Citrical Calcium Citrate w/Vitamin D (500 IU vitamin D plus 400 mg calcium)
B12 sublingual dot (1-2 – 500 mcg each)
Iron tablet (65 mg iron)
Biotin tablet (5,000 mcg of biotin w/ 132 mg calcium)
Fish oil softgel (1,200 mg)
Fiber Choice chewable tablet
I do need to talk to my nutritionist about the frequency and any vitamins that might counter each other, because a good friend told me that some of the vitamins that I'm taking might be negating each other. Have that on my "to do list."
Anyway, for the most part, I feel great. I've been getting back into my exercise routine (trying to get the YMCA 1-2 days/week for cardio and weightlifting) and doing the treadmill in my house 1-2 days/week. I'm really enjoying running on the treadmill, and who knows, maybe one of these days, I'll turn into a runner!
Here's a photo of my daughter and I that was taken recently:
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Until next time, peace out and enjoy your Thanksgiving Holiday!
My bloodwork at my six-month check-up was great -- no vitamin deficiencies or any issues to be concerned with. I've been really focusing on making sure I get all my vitamins in each and every day. Here is my typical vitamin schedule:
Morning
Flintstones Complete chewable vitamin
Vitamin D (1000 IU plus 117 mg calcium)
Citrical Calcium Citrate w/Vitamin D (500 IU vitamin D plus 400 mg calcium)
B12 sublingual dot (1-2 – 500 mcg each)
B-1 tablet (100 mg of B-1/thiamin and 80 mcg of calcium and 24 mg of phosphorus)
Dinnertime
Flintstones Complete chewable vitamin
Citrical Calcium Citrate w/Vitamin D (500 IU vitamin D plus 400 mg calcium)
B12 sublingual dot (1-2 – 500 mcg each)
Iron tablet (65 mg iron)
Biotin tablet (5,000 mcg of biotin w/ 132 mg calcium)
Fish oil softgel (1,200 mg)
Fiber Choice chewable tablet
I do need to talk to my nutritionist about the frequency and any vitamins that might counter each other, because a good friend told me that some of the vitamins that I'm taking might be negating each other. Have that on my "to do list."
Anyway, for the most part, I feel great. I've been getting back into my exercise routine (trying to get the YMCA 1-2 days/week for cardio and weightlifting) and doing the treadmill in my house 1-2 days/week. I'm really enjoying running on the treadmill, and who knows, maybe one of these days, I'll turn into a runner!
Here's a photo of my daughter and I that was taken recently:
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Until next time, peace out and enjoy your Thanksgiving Holiday!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Feeling Great Six Months Out!
It's been almost 6 months (actually next Friday, 10/30 will be) since my WLS. I have to say that I look and feel like a completely different person. During this journey, I have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 14 and I've lost a total of 88 pounds. I can't say it was easy. The first couple of weeks were very difficult and learning "how to eat" along the way has been a struggle.
Now that I'm almost six months out, I feel healthier than I ever have in my entire life. I'm very diligent with taking my vitamins each and every day, and I really think that has helped. I was never one (before WLS) to take vitamins on a regular basis. Now, it's just become part of my every day routine.
I'll be curious to see what my doctor says when I go for my six-month checkup at Barix next Tuesday. Hopefully, my bloodwork will come back all normal and there will be no concerns about anything. Like I said, I feel great and I'm having no issues with my food intake.
There are two things that I need to work on: water intake and exercise. I can see these two being a struggle for the rest of my life. They always have been for me. If I'm not thinking about it, I forget to drink my water. My hectic lifestyle (crazy busy full-time job and three young children) prevents me from getting in exercise on a regular basis. While I feel that I'm very active (much more than I was before WLS), I still feel that this is something I need to focus on. With the weather getting much colder and days shorter here on the East coast, it is very hard to do anything outdoors. I do have a treadmill in my rec room that I need to utilize, and I will try to focus on that throughout these winter months.
As for my food intake, I have found that I'm able to eat almost anything without any nasty issues. I am still very diligent in staying away from sugars and I check every single label still for the sugar content. I've found that I can splurge here and there on carbs (very rare) and I can treat myself to a piece of sugar-free candy -- and I'm very content. I really don't miss all the high-sugar foods and candies that I used to devour before WLS.
My weight is now 183 pounds (I'm 5'8", so I still have a few pounds that I'd like to lose). I haven't weighed this little since right before I got married 12 years ago. Other than the extra tire that I have around my mid-section (hey, what do you expect from three c-sections?), I am happy with my body. I love getting dressed each morning and I feel so much more active than ever before!
This was absolutely the best decision I've ever made in my life (next to marrying my wonderful husband). I am completely satisfied with the results and the jumpstart this WLS has given me on the rest of my life. I feel (and look) like a completely different person and I'm so excited about living my life in this new body.
For anyone thinking about this surgery, I can tell you that it can be a lifesaver and will completely change your life! However, don't expect it to be a miracle -- you have to work hard to make it work! WLS is just a tool to get you to where you want -- it is not a miracle cure. It will fix you physically, but it will not change what's up in your head!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Now that I'm almost six months out, I feel healthier than I ever have in my entire life. I'm very diligent with taking my vitamins each and every day, and I really think that has helped. I was never one (before WLS) to take vitamins on a regular basis. Now, it's just become part of my every day routine.
I'll be curious to see what my doctor says when I go for my six-month checkup at Barix next Tuesday. Hopefully, my bloodwork will come back all normal and there will be no concerns about anything. Like I said, I feel great and I'm having no issues with my food intake.
There are two things that I need to work on: water intake and exercise. I can see these two being a struggle for the rest of my life. They always have been for me. If I'm not thinking about it, I forget to drink my water. My hectic lifestyle (crazy busy full-time job and three young children) prevents me from getting in exercise on a regular basis. While I feel that I'm very active (much more than I was before WLS), I still feel that this is something I need to focus on. With the weather getting much colder and days shorter here on the East coast, it is very hard to do anything outdoors. I do have a treadmill in my rec room that I need to utilize, and I will try to focus on that throughout these winter months.
As for my food intake, I have found that I'm able to eat almost anything without any nasty issues. I am still very diligent in staying away from sugars and I check every single label still for the sugar content. I've found that I can splurge here and there on carbs (very rare) and I can treat myself to a piece of sugar-free candy -- and I'm very content. I really don't miss all the high-sugar foods and candies that I used to devour before WLS.
My weight is now 183 pounds (I'm 5'8", so I still have a few pounds that I'd like to lose). I haven't weighed this little since right before I got married 12 years ago. Other than the extra tire that I have around my mid-section (hey, what do you expect from three c-sections?), I am happy with my body. I love getting dressed each morning and I feel so much more active than ever before!
This was absolutely the best decision I've ever made in my life (next to marrying my wonderful husband). I am completely satisfied with the results and the jumpstart this WLS has given me on the rest of my life. I feel (and look) like a completely different person and I'm so excited about living my life in this new body.
For anyone thinking about this surgery, I can tell you that it can be a lifesaver and will completely change your life! However, don't expect it to be a miracle -- you have to work hard to make it work! WLS is just a tool to get you to where you want -- it is not a miracle cure. It will fix you physically, but it will not change what's up in your head!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
A wonderful first...
It's been almost 6 months (and 85 pounds) since my WLS and I'm still experiencing those "firsts" every once and a while. Last night was a perfect example. I went to the Flyers home opener -- my first hockey game since losing the weight. I have to say what a delight it was putting on that Mike Richards jersey and not feeling like the Pillsbury Dough Boy stuffed in it. It was also a real treat to sit in my seat at the game and not feel like a sardine shoved in a can. The game was great (Flyers won in OT) and it was an overall great night!! (I was even able to eat a few Chickie & Pete's crab fries and cheese dip!).
This makes me realize how many more "firsts" I will have as I continue down this journey. Here are a few of the firsts that I've experienced in the last six months:
1. Fitting in a size LARGE sweater -- I don't think I've been in that size since high school!
2. Being able to shop for clothing in normal department stores and not just plus-size stores like Lane Bryant and Avenue.
3. Walking into meetings at work with people that I haven't seen for months, and watching their faces as they stare at me in misbelief.
4. Being able to walk up a few flights of stairs and not being out of breath.
5. Looking in the mirror and actually liking the reflection of what is looking back.
I'm sure there will be many more "firsts" and I look forward to experiencing them!
Until next time, peace out!!
This makes me realize how many more "firsts" I will have as I continue down this journey. Here are a few of the firsts that I've experienced in the last six months:
1. Fitting in a size LARGE sweater -- I don't think I've been in that size since high school!
2. Being able to shop for clothing in normal department stores and not just plus-size stores like Lane Bryant and Avenue.
3. Walking into meetings at work with people that I haven't seen for months, and watching their faces as they stare at me in misbelief.
4. Being able to walk up a few flights of stairs and not being out of breath.
5. Looking in the mirror and actually liking the reflection of what is looking back.
I'm sure there will be many more "firsts" and I look forward to experiencing them!
Until next time, peace out!!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Turning 40 this year was somewhat fun...
Well, I suppose that I'm over the hill now. I turned 40 a few weeks ago, and I have to say that I honestly don't feel mature enough to be 40. I'm still that same immature kid who enjoys going to Metallica concerts with my friends (and family members), spending countless hours playing on facebook, and downloading the latest tunes on my iPod/iPhone. I guess the old adage must be true: YOU ARE ONLY AS YOUNG AS YOU ACT!
Turning 40 for me this year was a lot easier because of how I feel and how I look as a result of my WLS. I feel like a new person (and some people have told me that I look like a new person). I suppose that made it easier to swallow hitting this big milestone of my life.
Last night, my friends and family threw a surprise belated 40th birthday party for me (and, ironically enough, also a surprise for my best friend Lisa who turns 40 today). Even though it wasn't a huge surprise for me that something was going on, it was a surprise when I walked into my own house and saw tons of family and friends there. My father took a few photos of the evening's festivities and, as I looked at them this morning, I really couldn't believe my eyes.
Here is a picture of my best friend (Lisa) and I five months ago:
Now, here's a photo of us both five months later after having WLS:
Combined, we've lost more than 130 pounds in just five short months! What an amazing way to restart our lives!! I think we'd both agree that it has been (and still will be) a long, hard journey, but it's been worth it all along the way.
Here's to us both -- looking good and feeling healthy as we turn 40 years old and start the next chapter in our lives! Happy birthday Lisa!
Until next time, peace out!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Four months out!
Wow, the last four months have flown right by. I can't believe that summer is already over and school is back in session (my kids started back today).
All this has given me the opportunity to reflect on my weightloss over the summer. I had my surgery on April 30, 2009 and weighed in at a whopping 271 pounds!! I look back at the pictures now and all I see is something that resembles the Staypuff Marshmallow Man!!! Seriously.
Anyway, we were taking photos this morning of the kids on their first day back at school. My daughter wanted to take a photo of me. In the past, I would have easily dismissed the idea and run hiding from the camera. For some reason, she caught me at an "off" moment this morning (not to mention that it was 7 a.m.). She snapped the photo and I didn't think anything of it until I came home from work and uploaded the photos. I was blown away. For the first time, I was looking at someone that I didn't know. I barely recognized myself.
See for yourself the transformation of me:
In just four short months, I've somehow managed to lose 81 pounds. I never even thought that was possible. This WLS has most definitely been an incredible journey for me, and I'm so damn grateful that I undertook this. I feel great, have a little more confidence, and feel much healthier than I ever have!
All this has given me the opportunity to reflect on my weightloss over the summer. I had my surgery on April 30, 2009 and weighed in at a whopping 271 pounds!! I look back at the pictures now and all I see is something that resembles the Staypuff Marshmallow Man!!! Seriously.
Anyway, we were taking photos this morning of the kids on their first day back at school. My daughter wanted to take a photo of me. In the past, I would have easily dismissed the idea and run hiding from the camera. For some reason, she caught me at an "off" moment this morning (not to mention that it was 7 a.m.). She snapped the photo and I didn't think anything of it until I came home from work and uploaded the photos. I was blown away. For the first time, I was looking at someone that I didn't know. I barely recognized myself.
See for yourself the transformation of me:
In just four short months, I've somehow managed to lose 81 pounds. I never even thought that was possible. This WLS has most definitely been an incredible journey for me, and I'm so damn grateful that I undertook this. I feel great, have a little more confidence, and feel much healthier than I ever have!
Monday, August 24, 2009
It was tough, but I made it through vacation!
I will say that it was very, very tough being away on vacation in the Outer Banks for a week. Tough because I couldn't control what I eat as much as I do when I'm home. I was limited with my food choices, especially because we went out to eat several times. I KNOW that I didn't get all my water and protein in every day. That's a given.
But, now that I'm home, I need to get myself back into the grind and back on schedule! I will say that I ate A LOT LESS than I ever have before on vacation. It was really nice to experiment with a few things (cheese ravioli, white pizza, pulled pork) and actually have them stay down. I'm still a little nervous when it comes to trying new things, especially when you're away from home.
I did get on the scale this morning and I actually managed to lose a couple pounds on vacation!! I guess I sweated them off in the heat and humidity on the Nags Head beach!
Here is a picture of my hubby and I (looking like lobsters) at dinner one night:
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We really had a wonderful, relaxing time on vacation. I only wish it didn't have to end. Reality truly sucks!!!
Until next time, peace out!
But, now that I'm home, I need to get myself back into the grind and back on schedule! I will say that I ate A LOT LESS than I ever have before on vacation. It was really nice to experiment with a few things (cheese ravioli, white pizza, pulled pork) and actually have them stay down. I'm still a little nervous when it comes to trying new things, especially when you're away from home.
I did get on the scale this morning and I actually managed to lose a couple pounds on vacation!! I guess I sweated them off in the heat and humidity on the Nags Head beach!
Here is a picture of my hubby and I (looking like lobsters) at dinner one night:
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We really had a wonderful, relaxing time on vacation. I only wish it didn't have to end. Reality truly sucks!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Monday, August 17, 2009
First true test of the new me!
I am on vacation in the Outer Banks, NC. I consider this my first true test of my new eating habits. Being away from home and away from the convenience of cooking in my own kitchen, I was a little worried about going on vacation. We all know that vacation usually means splurging on foods that you typically wouldn't eat -- ice cream, cotton candy, french fries (especially with vinegar), etc. I was a little worried about having to eat "my" foods while the rest of my family splurges on the typical "vacation" foods. Would I be able to get enough protein in? How would I feel with them eating all the "junk" food?
I've been out to eat several times at home, but I'm usually able to check ahead all the nutritional information of wherever it is that we're going. Down here in the Outer Banks, I don't have that option. It's a little overwhelming and frightening...
We just got here yesterday. After unpacking and getting ourselves settled in, we decided to go out to dinner at a pizza/Italian restaurant. I figured that I'd be able to find something there. Even though it probably wasn't the healthiest option, I ordered a white pizza with ricotta cheese. I haven't gone the pasta route or the salad route yet...and I knew that white pizza at least had some protein in it. Needless to say, it was an incredible slice of pizza that I had (everything stayed down) and I was able to have a leftover slice for lunch today.
The house that we are staying in is stocked with a wonderful kitchen, so I'm going to cook dinner tonight and tomorrow night. I'll at least be able to control what I eat and what I put into it. Hopefully, I'll have an incident-free and enjoyable week here in the Outer Banks!!
Until next time, peace out!
I've been out to eat several times at home, but I'm usually able to check ahead all the nutritional information of wherever it is that we're going. Down here in the Outer Banks, I don't have that option. It's a little overwhelming and frightening...
We just got here yesterday. After unpacking and getting ourselves settled in, we decided to go out to dinner at a pizza/Italian restaurant. I figured that I'd be able to find something there. Even though it probably wasn't the healthiest option, I ordered a white pizza with ricotta cheese. I haven't gone the pasta route or the salad route yet...and I knew that white pizza at least had some protein in it. Needless to say, it was an incredible slice of pizza that I had (everything stayed down) and I was able to have a leftover slice for lunch today.
The house that we are staying in is stocked with a wonderful kitchen, so I'm going to cook dinner tonight and tomorrow night. I'll at least be able to control what I eat and what I put into it. Hopefully, I'll have an incident-free and enjoyable week here in the Outer Banks!!
Until next time, peace out!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I did it -- I'm in one-derland!!!
I'm finally here!!! For the first time in 12 years, I have finally made it to one-derland. Got on the scale this morning...and I was astonished to see 199 pounds!!! What a wonderful way to start my day. I have an extra bounce in my step this morning.
Now to set a new goal. My original end goal was 170 pounds. That means, I have 29 more pounds to go. I know I can get there, and maybe even beyond.
I'd have to say that my new goal is a commitment goal. I've been on-and-off with my exercise. My family life (three young children) and busy work schedule (working in communications for a school district) sometimes does not allow me to get to the gym. I've been trying to supplement gym visits with my treadmill. My goal is to workout in some way, shape, or form AT LEAST 3 TIMES PER WEEK!! I know that will help to turn some of these rolls and flab into more toned muscle.
Anyway, I'm feeling really good and wish you all luck in your endeavors. Whether you're reading this as a fellow WLS patient or just reading it because you know me and the blog email is forwarded to you, I wish you luck in whatever it is that you are striving for. With a little work and hard effort, you'll get there!! Just keep your chin up and your spirits high!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Now to set a new goal. My original end goal was 170 pounds. That means, I have 29 more pounds to go. I know I can get there, and maybe even beyond.
I'd have to say that my new goal is a commitment goal. I've been on-and-off with my exercise. My family life (three young children) and busy work schedule (working in communications for a school district) sometimes does not allow me to get to the gym. I've been trying to supplement gym visits with my treadmill. My goal is to workout in some way, shape, or form AT LEAST 3 TIMES PER WEEK!! I know that will help to turn some of these rolls and flab into more toned muscle.
Anyway, I'm feeling really good and wish you all luck in your endeavors. Whether you're reading this as a fellow WLS patient or just reading it because you know me and the blog email is forwarded to you, I wish you luck in whatever it is that you are striving for. With a little work and hard effort, you'll get there!! Just keep your chin up and your spirits high!!!
Until next time, peace out!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Reached a milestone...and another one's right around the corner!
Milestone #1: I fit into a size 14 today!!
Milestone #2 (almost there): I'm only 1.4 pounds away from being 200 pounds!
OK, now let me backtrack and tell the story. My mother and I went shopping tonight. Since this journey started for me, my clothes have been progressively getting bigger and bigger and I've had to "retire" many pairs of pants and tops. I went shopping earlier in the summer and picked up a few tops and pairs of capris for work, but that's it.
Right after my WLS, I was in size 22/24 pants and 26/28 tops. As soon as the weight started coming off, the sizes started going down. I seriously think I skipped over size 20 and went right into size 18. That's where I've been the past few weeks, until yesterday at work, someone pointed out that my capri pants were too big. I thought that my co-worker must be mistaken, because I had just bought the capris two months ago. When I really examined my legs, I thought "Yea, she's right." I was floating in the capris!
So, my mother and I went to Avenue and Ross tonight in search of some good finds. I didn't want to spend too much, since it's at the end of one season and I'll have to be buying long-sleeve tops and sweaters soon enough! I found a few bargains tonight...but the best news of all was that I was able to fit into a size 14 top and I bought this beautiful dress suit for work -- also in a size 14! I can honestly say that I haven't been in a size 14 since right after I got married -- 12 years ago!!! What an awesome feeling!!
OK, onto my second milestone. I had set a personal goal for myself to be under 200 pounds when I leave for vacation. Well, we leave for the Outer Banks next Sunday and when I got on the scale this morning, I was at 201.4. Only a pound and a half and I'll be in ONEDERLAND!!!! Again, that's a territory that I haven't ventured in since right after I got married 12 years ago.
Overall, I'm feeling really good right now. It's been more than 3 months since my WLS. The only problem that I'm having now is hair loss. Can't wait for that to stop. My only challenges now are making sure that I get enough protein and water each day. Some days, that is a challenge. Most days are alright, though.
Until next time, peace out!
Milestone #2 (almost there): I'm only 1.4 pounds away from being 200 pounds!
OK, now let me backtrack and tell the story. My mother and I went shopping tonight. Since this journey started for me, my clothes have been progressively getting bigger and bigger and I've had to "retire" many pairs of pants and tops. I went shopping earlier in the summer and picked up a few tops and pairs of capris for work, but that's it.
Right after my WLS, I was in size 22/24 pants and 26/28 tops. As soon as the weight started coming off, the sizes started going down. I seriously think I skipped over size 20 and went right into size 18. That's where I've been the past few weeks, until yesterday at work, someone pointed out that my capri pants were too big. I thought that my co-worker must be mistaken, because I had just bought the capris two months ago. When I really examined my legs, I thought "Yea, she's right." I was floating in the capris!
So, my mother and I went to Avenue and Ross tonight in search of some good finds. I didn't want to spend too much, since it's at the end of one season and I'll have to be buying long-sleeve tops and sweaters soon enough! I found a few bargains tonight...but the best news of all was that I was able to fit into a size 14 top and I bought this beautiful dress suit for work -- also in a size 14! I can honestly say that I haven't been in a size 14 since right after I got married -- 12 years ago!!! What an awesome feeling!!
OK, onto my second milestone. I had set a personal goal for myself to be under 200 pounds when I leave for vacation. Well, we leave for the Outer Banks next Sunday and when I got on the scale this morning, I was at 201.4. Only a pound and a half and I'll be in ONEDERLAND!!!! Again, that's a territory that I haven't ventured in since right after I got married 12 years ago.
Overall, I'm feeling really good right now. It's been more than 3 months since my WLS. The only problem that I'm having now is hair loss. Can't wait for that to stop. My only challenges now are making sure that I get enough protein and water each day. Some days, that is a challenge. Most days are alright, though.
Until next time, peace out!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Almost to Onederland!
OK, so I got on the scale this morning and had a big realization! Only 6 more pounds until "Onederland"! I will be under 200 pounds for the first time in over 12 years!!
I've set a small goal for myself -- to lose those 6 pounds before I leave for vacation on August 16th. That gives me three weeks -- two pounds a week. I think that's do-able, don't you?
I had an incident yesterday involving an orange, of all things. I am able to drink orange juice (50% reduced sugar from Tropicana) with no problem. For some reason, I was craving a real ice cold orange yesterday afternoon. So, I sliced it into four pieces and started sucking the juice out of them. I got through three quarters and then, all of a sudden, I got this shooting pain in my tummy. After about 10 minutes, I ended up having to force myself to throw up because I couldn't handle the pain anymore. I suppose that it was too much acid, but I certainly learned my lesson. No more oranges for me anytime soon!
I have my three-month checkup with my WLS doctor on Wednesday, so I'll see how things go. I do know that my potassium levels are still a little bit low, so I'm really trying to focus on eating more bananas and other foods high in potassium.
1 lb. extra lean ground beef
1 cup chopped onion
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese
1 cup Reduced Fat Bisquick®
1 cup skim milk
1/2 cup liquid egg substitute
Heat oven to 400 degrees F. Grease 9” pie plate. Cook ground beef and onion in skillet until beef is brown; drain. Stir in salt. Spread in pie plate; sprinkle with cheese. Stir remaining ingredients in separate bowl until well mixed. Pour into pie plate. Bake for 25 minutes or until a knife inserted in the center comes out clean. Makes 6 servings.
NOTE: To reduce fat, use extra lean ground turkey in place of the ground beef.
Nutrition information per serving: 310 calories; 26 grams protein; 18 grams fat; 9 grams carbohydrate; 243 mg sodium; 205 mg calcium.
I will let you know how it comes out!
Have a great week!! Until next time, peace out!
I've set a small goal for myself -- to lose those 6 pounds before I leave for vacation on August 16th. That gives me three weeks -- two pounds a week. I think that's do-able, don't you?
I had an incident yesterday involving an orange, of all things. I am able to drink orange juice (50% reduced sugar from Tropicana) with no problem. For some reason, I was craving a real ice cold orange yesterday afternoon. So, I sliced it into four pieces and started sucking the juice out of them. I got through three quarters and then, all of a sudden, I got this shooting pain in my tummy. After about 10 minutes, I ended up having to force myself to throw up because I couldn't handle the pain anymore. I suppose that it was too much acid, but I certainly learned my lesson. No more oranges for me anytime soon!
I have my three-month checkup with my WLS doctor on Wednesday, so I'll see how things go. I do know that my potassium levels are still a little bit low, so I'm really trying to focus on eating more bananas and other foods high in potassium.
Here's a recipe that I'm going to try for dinner tomorrow night. The kids (and me) are looking forward to it:
Impossibly Easy Cheeseburger Pie1 lb. extra lean ground beef
1 cup chopped onion
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese
1 cup Reduced Fat Bisquick®
1 cup skim milk
1/2 cup liquid egg substitute
Heat oven to 400 degrees F. Grease 9” pie plate. Cook ground beef and onion in skillet until beef is brown; drain. Stir in salt. Spread in pie plate; sprinkle with cheese. Stir remaining ingredients in separate bowl until well mixed. Pour into pie plate. Bake for 25 minutes or until a knife inserted in the center comes out clean. Makes 6 servings.
NOTE: To reduce fat, use extra lean ground turkey in place of the ground beef.
Nutrition information per serving: 310 calories; 26 grams protein; 18 grams fat; 9 grams carbohydrate; 243 mg sodium; 205 mg calcium.
I will let you know how it comes out!
Have a great week!! Until next time, peace out!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
This roller coaster is slowing down...
I can't believe that this Thursday will be 3 months since my weight loss surgery (WLS). Time has really flown by rather quickly. I will say that there were a few weeks where I wondered whether or not I did the right thing. But, once the stricture that I had was confirmed and Dr. Boe performed the endoscopy, things improved drastically and I once again KNEW that having this WLS was the right decision for me.
Weight isn't coming off as quickly as it was in the beginning, but that is to be expected. I can't say that I'm disappointed because I still feel great and I'm still losing about 1-2 pounds/week now. I think a lot of the slowdown is due to eating foods again (protein-rich foods) and also that I've been exercising and building muscle. It's a long process and I'm only 3 months out. It could take between 12-18 months to lose all my weight (still aiming for another 40-50 pounds).
I feel great and have been trying to exercise as regularly as I can (2-3 times/week is where I'm at now). I'd like to build upon that and make it 4-5 times/week. It's funny how much better a 30-minute workout goes on the treadmill when you are feeling good about yourself. Before surgery, it was such a chore walking/running on the treadmill. I had no motivation because that one 30-minute workout on the treadmill wasn't going to help me lose any weight. It was all so overwhelming to think about how much weight I really had to lose.
This WLS has given me a huge jumpstart -- not only on losing weight, but also on eating healthy and maintaining an active lifestyle. I think about what I'm putting in my mouth now. I try to eat foods that will give me the biggest bang for my buck: protein comes first always. Everything I put in my mouth has to have protein in it, or it's not worth it. I've gotten to love my protein-filled snacks of almonds, Greek yogurt, peanut butter crackers, etc.
Since things have been going well lately, I've been branching out and trying new things and new recipes. Cooking is fun once again, and so far, my family has enjoyed everything that I've cooked recently. Although I usually can only eat a bird's portion of dinner, it sure is nice being able to sit down with the family and enjoy dinner.
I've decided to post a new recipe that I try on each blog, so you can try it if interested. Here is a recipe for a yummy Chicken and Salsa dish that I've made twice for my family so far. It's so filling and goes perfect with some refried beans (extra protein!).
Chicken and Salsa
1 lb. Chicken breast, boneless, skinless
16 oz. salsa
2-15 oz. cans black beans, drained and rinsed
8 oz. cream cheese, fat free
Add chicken to a large frying pan. Add salsa, beans and cream cheese (cube cream cheese into small pieces). Heat on medium heat until warm and cream cheese has melted. You may need to add a little water (1-2 cups) if become too thick. Makes 6 small servings.
Nutrition Information Per Serving: 302 Calories; 29 grams Protein; 3 grams Fat; 28 grams Carbohydrate; 1291 mg Sodium.
So, if you try the recipe, let me know what you think by leaving a comment. I'd love to hear from you!
Until next time, peace out!
Weight isn't coming off as quickly as it was in the beginning, but that is to be expected. I can't say that I'm disappointed because I still feel great and I'm still losing about 1-2 pounds/week now. I think a lot of the slowdown is due to eating foods again (protein-rich foods) and also that I've been exercising and building muscle. It's a long process and I'm only 3 months out. It could take between 12-18 months to lose all my weight (still aiming for another 40-50 pounds).
I feel great and have been trying to exercise as regularly as I can (2-3 times/week is where I'm at now). I'd like to build upon that and make it 4-5 times/week. It's funny how much better a 30-minute workout goes on the treadmill when you are feeling good about yourself. Before surgery, it was such a chore walking/running on the treadmill. I had no motivation because that one 30-minute workout on the treadmill wasn't going to help me lose any weight. It was all so overwhelming to think about how much weight I really had to lose.
This WLS has given me a huge jumpstart -- not only on losing weight, but also on eating healthy and maintaining an active lifestyle. I think about what I'm putting in my mouth now. I try to eat foods that will give me the biggest bang for my buck: protein comes first always. Everything I put in my mouth has to have protein in it, or it's not worth it. I've gotten to love my protein-filled snacks of almonds, Greek yogurt, peanut butter crackers, etc.
Since things have been going well lately, I've been branching out and trying new things and new recipes. Cooking is fun once again, and so far, my family has enjoyed everything that I've cooked recently. Although I usually can only eat a bird's portion of dinner, it sure is nice being able to sit down with the family and enjoy dinner.
I've decided to post a new recipe that I try on each blog, so you can try it if interested. Here is a recipe for a yummy Chicken and Salsa dish that I've made twice for my family so far. It's so filling and goes perfect with some refried beans (extra protein!).
Chicken and Salsa
1 lb. Chicken breast, boneless, skinless
16 oz. salsa
2-15 oz. cans black beans, drained and rinsed
8 oz. cream cheese, fat free
Add chicken to a large frying pan. Add salsa, beans and cream cheese (cube cream cheese into small pieces). Heat on medium heat until warm and cream cheese has melted. You may need to add a little water (1-2 cups) if become too thick. Makes 6 small servings.
Nutrition Information Per Serving: 302 Calories; 29 grams Protein; 3 grams Fat; 28 grams Carbohydrate; 1291 mg Sodium.
So, if you try the recipe, let me know what you think by leaving a comment. I'd love to hear from you!
Until next time, peace out!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
More than halfway there...
Today marks 11 weeks since my gastric bypass surgery. I really can't believe it's been that long. It seems like it was just last week that I was coming home from the hospital.
In those 11 weeks, I have lost a total of 61 pounds! I feel and look like a new person. I've gone down 4-5 sizes -- depending on the outfit.
Check out the pictures of my progress below:
In those 11 weeks, I have lost a total of 61 pounds! I feel and look like a new person. I've gone down 4-5 sizes -- depending on the outfit.
Check out the pictures of my progress below:
I've been doing fine with my food intake and have had only two incidents of dumping (throwing up) since my endoscopy. I think both times were the result of eating too quickly and probably not chewing my food enough. Barix tells you to chew slowly and take three minutes in between each bite. That's a little unrealistic, but I do try to take my time.
I have also been focusing on my exercise. I joined the YMCA about a month and a half ago and I've been working out there as often as I can. Some weeks are more difficult than others, but I do try to do at least 30 minutes on my treadmill in the basement if I can't get to the YMCA. I'm starting to notice more definition in my arms and legs, but I still have a ways to go.
My biggest challenge right now is getting all of my protein in. I'm supposed to be getting 70 grams of protein/day. Unfortunately, I don't get it all in most days. Part of the problem is that I'm just not hungry in the afternoons and evenings. I eat a healthy breakfast (usually corn flakes, 1% milk, and sliced banana). But, come lunchtime, I just don't have an appetite. Dinner is worse. I try to supplement in between with snacks during the day (peanuts, crackers, fruit, etc.).
Because of the lack of protein and as a result of the surgery, I have started to lose my hair. This started about two weeks ago, and it has gotten really bad. I have noticed that my hair is really thin now. Even my husband noticed it last night. Nobody else has, but I fear that if it continues much longer, it will be REALLY noticeable. Hair loss is a common side effect after gastric bypass surgery, but I think my hair loss is heightened because of the problems I was having before my endoscopy. I'll hang in there, and hopefully it won't get much worse!
All in all, things are going well and I feel good. Hopefully, each day will get better and better...
Until next time, peace out!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Feeling human again...
After last week's episode with dehydration and then the endoscopy to fix my not-nearly-wide-enough pouch opening, I finally feel like I'm getting there. I literally feel like I have done a 180-degree turnaround. After weeks and weeks of feeling like crap, vomiting, not being able to tolerate much of anything, I am finally able to eat normal food again!!!
Let me tell you some of the wonderful foods that I have been able to partake in over the past three days: a sandwich of wheat toast and Healthy Choice oven roasted turkey; a scrumptuous beef and bean burrito; a homemade dinner of chicken made with salsa/cream cheese/black beans (great recipe, by the way); a delicious grilled cheese sandwich (along with a couple of french fries on the side); Kellogg's Corn Flakes; and the list goes on! Although I can't eat nearly as much as I used to be able to, it is such a delight to eat real food once again! I feel redeemed -- it was all worth it!!
It took me four days to lose that 5 pounds that I put on being in the hospital overnight last week (from dehydration). Wow, I never imagined that an IV could put that much into you in only 12 short hours! But, everything happens for a reason. I know what to expect if something like that ever happens again -- and if there is a next time, I won't wait as long as I did to call my doctor!
The hardest part for me now is to make sure that I get my 70 grams of protein in each day. This is especially important now as I've started to lose some hair. Hair loss is a side effect of weightloss surgery, but I just didn't expect it this early. Most patients don't start losing hair until between 3 and 4 months out -- I'm only 2 months out!!! I think it's intensified with me since I was having so many problems with getting my protein (and anything) in over the last few weeks.
Anyhow, I called my nutritionist today and she said I can take the GNC "Hair, Skin & Nail Formula" vitamins. I picked up two bottles tonight at GNC (they were buy one, get one free -- how nice!). The pill was a little hard to get down because it's larger than I'm supposed to be taking (after weightloss surgery, you are not supposed to eat anything bigger than an M&M). I might see if I can cut one in half tomorrow and see if that works!!!
OK, off to bed now -- long day ahead of me at work (at least a 14-hour work day as we have principal interviews tomorrow -- ugh!!). I'll post later in the week and hopefull things will still be going well!!!
Let me tell you some of the wonderful foods that I have been able to partake in over the past three days: a sandwich of wheat toast and Healthy Choice oven roasted turkey; a scrumptuous beef and bean burrito; a homemade dinner of chicken made with salsa/cream cheese/black beans (great recipe, by the way); a delicious grilled cheese sandwich (along with a couple of french fries on the side); Kellogg's Corn Flakes; and the list goes on! Although I can't eat nearly as much as I used to be able to, it is such a delight to eat real food once again! I feel redeemed -- it was all worth it!!
It took me four days to lose that 5 pounds that I put on being in the hospital overnight last week (from dehydration). Wow, I never imagined that an IV could put that much into you in only 12 short hours! But, everything happens for a reason. I know what to expect if something like that ever happens again -- and if there is a next time, I won't wait as long as I did to call my doctor!
The hardest part for me now is to make sure that I get my 70 grams of protein in each day. This is especially important now as I've started to lose some hair. Hair loss is a side effect of weightloss surgery, but I just didn't expect it this early. Most patients don't start losing hair until between 3 and 4 months out -- I'm only 2 months out!!! I think it's intensified with me since I was having so many problems with getting my protein (and anything) in over the last few weeks.
Anyhow, I called my nutritionist today and she said I can take the GNC "Hair, Skin & Nail Formula" vitamins. I picked up two bottles tonight at GNC (they were buy one, get one free -- how nice!). The pill was a little hard to get down because it's larger than I'm supposed to be taking (after weightloss surgery, you are not supposed to eat anything bigger than an M&M). I might see if I can cut one in half tomorrow and see if that works!!!
OK, off to bed now -- long day ahead of me at work (at least a 14-hour work day as we have principal interviews tomorrow -- ugh!!). I'll post later in the week and hopefull things will still be going well!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
It's been a strange 24 hours...
In my last blog entry, I think I talked about some of the problems that I've been having with keeping food and liquids down.
Well, I just got back from Barix/Langhorne. I had my first (and hopefully only) endoscopy with dilation. I'm 8 weeks out today, and my hole opening to my pouch had strunk down to only 4 mm (should have been 12 mm).
It started a few weeks ago when I'd eat something and occasionally throw up. It progressively got worse until this weekend when I was even having problems keeping water down. I finally called Barix on Monday and Dr. Boe had me come in for chest x-rays on Tuesday. The x-rays did reveal a blockage, and I was scheduled for an endoscopy next Tuesday.
Well, I threw up all night on Monday night (all I drank was a few sips of water) and I feared I was dehydrated. One call to Barix, and they had me come in yesterday for observation and a planned endoscopy. (The staff at Barix/Langhorne is so wonderful --- a huge "shout out" to all of them!).
Anyway, before the endoscopy yesterday, they drew blood and it turns out that my potassium and sodium levels were critically low -- Dr. Boe wouldn't do the endoscopy yesterday because of it. I was severly dehydrated. Seriously, I had no idea it was that bad. I was a little tired and feeling a little cranky, but wasn't lightheaded or dizzy or anything. I guess never having experienced dehydration, you don't know what to look for!!!
So, they admitted me last night and put me on double time on the IV (they poked me 5 times before finding a vein that would work -- that came from the severe dehydration). I slept on and off last night and woke up feeling like a new woman this morning!
Dr. Boe did the endoscopy this morning and I feel much better. Clear liquids for a day or two until everything heals, and then I can gradually reintroduce foods. All in all, this was a huge lesson for me: call your doctor the minute you feel like something's not right. And don't be afraid to speak up if you're feeling like things aren't happening fast enough for you. (I dread thinking how badly dehydrated I would have been if I would have waited until next Tuesday to go in for this endoscopy).
So, hopefully this pothole in my road to success has been fixed. There is a chance that I'd need another endoscopy if the hole shrinks again, but I'll be keeping my fingers crossed (cross your's for me too!).
If you want to see photos of what a stricture looks like (and you have a tough stomach), go to this website. This is another gastric bypass patient who seems to have had it much worse than me:
http://www.immafooker.com/blog/_archives/2005/12/18/1454873.html
Take care!
Well, I just got back from Barix/Langhorne. I had my first (and hopefully only) endoscopy with dilation. I'm 8 weeks out today, and my hole opening to my pouch had strunk down to only 4 mm (should have been 12 mm).
It started a few weeks ago when I'd eat something and occasionally throw up. It progressively got worse until this weekend when I was even having problems keeping water down. I finally called Barix on Monday and Dr. Boe had me come in for chest x-rays on Tuesday. The x-rays did reveal a blockage, and I was scheduled for an endoscopy next Tuesday.
Well, I threw up all night on Monday night (all I drank was a few sips of water) and I feared I was dehydrated. One call to Barix, and they had me come in yesterday for observation and a planned endoscopy. (The staff at Barix/Langhorne is so wonderful --- a huge "shout out" to all of them!).
Anyway, before the endoscopy yesterday, they drew blood and it turns out that my potassium and sodium levels were critically low -- Dr. Boe wouldn't do the endoscopy yesterday because of it. I was severly dehydrated. Seriously, I had no idea it was that bad. I was a little tired and feeling a little cranky, but wasn't lightheaded or dizzy or anything. I guess never having experienced dehydration, you don't know what to look for!!!
So, they admitted me last night and put me on double time on the IV (they poked me 5 times before finding a vein that would work -- that came from the severe dehydration). I slept on and off last night and woke up feeling like a new woman this morning!
Dr. Boe did the endoscopy this morning and I feel much better. Clear liquids for a day or two until everything heals, and then I can gradually reintroduce foods. All in all, this was a huge lesson for me: call your doctor the minute you feel like something's not right. And don't be afraid to speak up if you're feeling like things aren't happening fast enough for you. (I dread thinking how badly dehydrated I would have been if I would have waited until next Tuesday to go in for this endoscopy).
So, hopefully this pothole in my road to success has been fixed. There is a chance that I'd need another endoscopy if the hole shrinks again, but I'll be keeping my fingers crossed (cross your's for me too!).
If you want to see photos of what a stricture looks like (and you have a tough stomach), go to this website. This is another gastric bypass patient who seems to have had it much worse than me:
http://www.immafooker.com/blog/_archives/2005/12/18/1454873.html
Take care!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Another bump (or pothole) in the road...
OK, so I will be 8 weeks out on Thursday. By now, I should be able to eat many regular foods and have no problems drinking. HOWEVER, I've been having problems the last two weeks which have progressively gotten worse. This weekend was the worst and was my breaking point.
Even though I'm on a Pepcid prescription for acid reflux/heartburn, I started having severe acid reflux whenever I would eat anything. It wasn't that I was eating spicy foods. It was anything. The acid reflux would get so bad most times, that I'd end up throwing up.
Anyway, Sunday into Monday, it became the worst. I started getting acid reflux and vomiting after I'd drink even a few sips of water!!! Ridiculous, I know. I knew something was more than just wrong, so I finally called Barix yesterday.
I had to go in today for some chest x-rays and the barium test. The tests revealed that the opening to my pouch is too small -- the barium wasn't draining out of my pouch as quickly as it should have. Dr. Boe is having me come in next Tuesday for a scope. They will knock me out and then he will put a scope down my throat. If he can't get it through the opening to my pouch, then it has overhealed and that is the problem: the opening is too small and nothing can get down it! If that's the case, he will use a balloon-like device to enlarge the opening.
Officially, it's called a stricture and I've heard that 1 out of 10 gastric bypass patients get this. So, it's not very uncommon. Just very inconvenient and frustrating for me. Many people have to go back more than once to have this done, so I'm not sure that will be the end of it.
I'll say that I'm feeling a bout of depression all over again. I thought I was through the "rough times" and that I'd finally be able to sit down with family and eat a dinner. I guess that will all happen in time. I'll just try to hang in there until then...
Even though I'm on a Pepcid prescription for acid reflux/heartburn, I started having severe acid reflux whenever I would eat anything. It wasn't that I was eating spicy foods. It was anything. The acid reflux would get so bad most times, that I'd end up throwing up.
Anyway, Sunday into Monday, it became the worst. I started getting acid reflux and vomiting after I'd drink even a few sips of water!!! Ridiculous, I know. I knew something was more than just wrong, so I finally called Barix yesterday.
I had to go in today for some chest x-rays and the barium test. The tests revealed that the opening to my pouch is too small -- the barium wasn't draining out of my pouch as quickly as it should have. Dr. Boe is having me come in next Tuesday for a scope. They will knock me out and then he will put a scope down my throat. If he can't get it through the opening to my pouch, then it has overhealed and that is the problem: the opening is too small and nothing can get down it! If that's the case, he will use a balloon-like device to enlarge the opening.
Officially, it's called a stricture and I've heard that 1 out of 10 gastric bypass patients get this. So, it's not very uncommon. Just very inconvenient and frustrating for me. Many people have to go back more than once to have this done, so I'm not sure that will be the end of it.
I'll say that I'm feeling a bout of depression all over again. I thought I was through the "rough times" and that I'd finally be able to sit down with family and eat a dinner. I guess that will all happen in time. I'll just try to hang in there until then...
Monday, June 15, 2009
6 weeks and counting...
It's been a while since I've blogged. Last week was just a crazy busy week at work and I really had no spare time. My diet really suffered for that. I didn't eat anywhere near what I should have been eating (protein-wise). That is my biggest hurdle right now...making sure I eat enough and enough of the right stuff. Honestly, I could go the entire day without eating anything...and not even realize it. It is a really weird feeling to NOT be hungry. I went so many years where all I did was think about what I was going to eat next. It's very different now.
I had my 6-week check-up last Tuesday. Everything went well. I met with Dr. Boe and the nutritionist. I do have to go in early July for some blood work (I can go to Quest or any local lab for that). They will check everything and send the results to my doctor. They'll be able to tell what kind of vitamins I'm deficient in, how my cholesterol is, etc.
The good news is that I'm down a total of 48 pounds! It's amazing how it just keeps falling off...a lot slower now, but that's a good thing! I can definitely tell in my face and my mid-section. I'm down now 4 sizes! What a great feeling that is!!! I'm also more active now. My family joined the local YMCA and we've gone to the pool now the past two Sundays. I actually got in and swam a few laps yesterday...how refreshing that was. I think even my kids were surprised to see me in the water. They got used to me being an inactive slug for the past few years. It was a great feeling to be in the pool with them!!
I'm looking forward to starting a regular fitness regime...tomorrow night, I'm heading into the Y's fitness center to try some light weights and maybe the elliptical. I also am looking forward to the large indoor track that they have at the Y. I can't wait!
As for my food intake, I'm still having problems finding what I can and cannot eat. I was massively craving a slice of pizza last week, so I tried eating a 1/2 slice. I got really bad acid reflux afterwards and ended up throwing up. This happens more often than not, and I really think that I'm just making poor choices. It's hard when you haven't eaten "real" food in so long (2 months now). It's like you have to learn to eat all over again!! I'm slowly but surely making progress.
Thankfully, my husband is a very patient man...he's put up with me all along the way without any complaints!!! It will all be worth it in the end, I'm sure of that!
Until next time, peace out!
I had my 6-week check-up last Tuesday. Everything went well. I met with Dr. Boe and the nutritionist. I do have to go in early July for some blood work (I can go to Quest or any local lab for that). They will check everything and send the results to my doctor. They'll be able to tell what kind of vitamins I'm deficient in, how my cholesterol is, etc.
The good news is that I'm down a total of 48 pounds! It's amazing how it just keeps falling off...a lot slower now, but that's a good thing! I can definitely tell in my face and my mid-section. I'm down now 4 sizes! What a great feeling that is!!! I'm also more active now. My family joined the local YMCA and we've gone to the pool now the past two Sundays. I actually got in and swam a few laps yesterday...how refreshing that was. I think even my kids were surprised to see me in the water. They got used to me being an inactive slug for the past few years. It was a great feeling to be in the pool with them!!
I'm looking forward to starting a regular fitness regime...tomorrow night, I'm heading into the Y's fitness center to try some light weights and maybe the elliptical. I also am looking forward to the large indoor track that they have at the Y. I can't wait!
As for my food intake, I'm still having problems finding what I can and cannot eat. I was massively craving a slice of pizza last week, so I tried eating a 1/2 slice. I got really bad acid reflux afterwards and ended up throwing up. This happens more often than not, and I really think that I'm just making poor choices. It's hard when you haven't eaten "real" food in so long (2 months now). It's like you have to learn to eat all over again!! I'm slowly but surely making progress.
Thankfully, my husband is a very patient man...he's put up with me all along the way without any complaints!!! It will all be worth it in the end, I'm sure of that!
Until next time, peace out!
Saturday, June 6, 2009
On the up-swing of the roller coaster...
It's been a pretty good week. I've really not eaten as much as I should have (or tried to compensate with protein shakes). I think for the most part, it was the fear of food getting stuck again and then getting sick. That's a feeling I hope I never have to experience again. Oh, I'm sure that I will, but I will do whatever it takes to try to prevent it.
I've been able to eat a few soft foods this week: a meatball, baked ricotta (great recipe, by the way), oatmeal, chicken and cheese (from the inside of a chicken quesadilla), and mashed potatoes (my staple). Each day, I'm trying to experiment with something new. I'm really being conservative, I know, but I think that's for the best right now.
I go back to Barix on Tuesday morning for my 6-week check-up. They will draw blood and do other tests to make sure that everything is in order. I'm sure that I'll have some kind of vitamin and protein deficiency, but that is something that I will have to work on. I'm supposed to be taking my chewable multi-vitamins twice a day, but I rarely take the evening one. I know that's bad, but it's hard enough remembering to take the one in the morning. It's something I have to work on. There's a lot I have to work on, but I know that this is a work in progress. I can't expect everything to change overnight.
I'm over the depression part of things (I hope). I'm feeling pretty good actually. People are starting to compliment me and tell me how good I like. That's a great feeling. Most importantly, I feel good about myself. I'm really considering joining the YMCA or another local gym and starting an exercise program. I still get on my treadmill (not as much as I should, I know), but I would like to start supplementing with some light weight lifting. It will be hard to fit into my awfully busy schedule, but with summer coming and the kids activities dying down a bit, maybe I can do it. We'll see.
Anyway, we'll see what this weekend brings. So far, so good. Gotta work on that protein, though!
I've been able to eat a few soft foods this week: a meatball, baked ricotta (great recipe, by the way), oatmeal, chicken and cheese (from the inside of a chicken quesadilla), and mashed potatoes (my staple). Each day, I'm trying to experiment with something new. I'm really being conservative, I know, but I think that's for the best right now.
I go back to Barix on Tuesday morning for my 6-week check-up. They will draw blood and do other tests to make sure that everything is in order. I'm sure that I'll have some kind of vitamin and protein deficiency, but that is something that I will have to work on. I'm supposed to be taking my chewable multi-vitamins twice a day, but I rarely take the evening one. I know that's bad, but it's hard enough remembering to take the one in the morning. It's something I have to work on. There's a lot I have to work on, but I know that this is a work in progress. I can't expect everything to change overnight.
I'm over the depression part of things (I hope). I'm feeling pretty good actually. People are starting to compliment me and tell me how good I like. That's a great feeling. Most importantly, I feel good about myself. I'm really considering joining the YMCA or another local gym and starting an exercise program. I still get on my treadmill (not as much as I should, I know), but I would like to start supplementing with some light weight lifting. It will be hard to fit into my awfully busy schedule, but with summer coming and the kids activities dying down a bit, maybe I can do it. We'll see.
Anyway, we'll see what this weekend brings. So far, so good. Gotta work on that protein, though!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Living on the taters...
Well, I made it through a week of pureed foods...after my minor setup earlier this week. I basically lived off mashed potatoes because they go down easily and the thought of pureeing my dinner just doesn't sit well with me. Meatloaf of spaghetti through a blender just doesn't sound appetizing. I'd rather continue eating my mashed potatoes and getting additional protein in through my protein bullets.
I am so scared of the pain that I had last weekend and earlier this week. It was awful, and I really don't want to experience that again (if I can help it!).
It's getting very hard thinking about food these days. What I wouldn't give for a slice of sicilian pizza (just one slice, that's all!) or a couple of bites out of a chicken cheesesteak. They are the two foods that I'm craving...salivating over...lusting for!!! Hopefully, eventually, some day, I'll be able to enjoy those again...but the waiting is hard! Very hard.
That said, I'm overjoyed that I'm down 38 pounds. I can see and feel a difference in how my clothes feel and look. A few people at work have complimented me and said I look great! I definitely see a change in my face...I'm not so "puffy" anymore!
Two things I have to work one:
1. Getting my protein in. I'm supposed to be eating 70 grams of protein per day. I can honestly tell you that most days, I'm nowhere even close to that. I'm lucky some days if I get in 30-40 grams of protein. My nutritionist said not to worry about it, especially while I'm still on the pureed phase. I'm just worried that it will increase my hair loss in a few months. From what I understand, the lack of protein is what assists in your hair falling out!
2. Getting enough exercise. Since I went back to work a week after surgery, finding time for myself has become few and far between. I do walk on my treadmill a few times a week, but I really should be walking every day for at least 30 minutes. I know this will help increase my weightloss. I vow to make more of an effort starting this weekend. Seriously, I will.
OK, that's enough for now. I hope you all have a great weekend! Take care and peace out!
I am so scared of the pain that I had last weekend and earlier this week. It was awful, and I really don't want to experience that again (if I can help it!).
It's getting very hard thinking about food these days. What I wouldn't give for a slice of sicilian pizza (just one slice, that's all!) or a couple of bites out of a chicken cheesesteak. They are the two foods that I'm craving...salivating over...lusting for!!! Hopefully, eventually, some day, I'll be able to enjoy those again...but the waiting is hard! Very hard.
That said, I'm overjoyed that I'm down 38 pounds. I can see and feel a difference in how my clothes feel and look. A few people at work have complimented me and said I look great! I definitely see a change in my face...I'm not so "puffy" anymore!
Two things I have to work one:
1. Getting my protein in. I'm supposed to be eating 70 grams of protein per day. I can honestly tell you that most days, I'm nowhere even close to that. I'm lucky some days if I get in 30-40 grams of protein. My nutritionist said not to worry about it, especially while I'm still on the pureed phase. I'm just worried that it will increase my hair loss in a few months. From what I understand, the lack of protein is what assists in your hair falling out!
2. Getting enough exercise. Since I went back to work a week after surgery, finding time for myself has become few and far between. I do walk on my treadmill a few times a week, but I really should be walking every day for at least 30 minutes. I know this will help increase my weightloss. I vow to make more of an effort starting this weekend. Seriously, I will.
OK, that's enough for now. I hope you all have a great weekend! Take care and peace out!
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